1 year ago. Wednesday, January 31, 2024 at 9:07 PM
Why is it that when I am out of sorts I always want to reach for the past? Reach out to the one who was too cowardly to be a man or run back to the one I walked away from because he never knew the real me? Find comfort where I know only pain will result. Maybe I’m an emotional Masochist, maybe I’m reaching for the known because the unknown is scary, or maybe I am just a mid- life mess.
My hopes for a happy ever after never seem to pan out. What I am searching for…..a partner in this life and a Dominant in the bedroom is just more unicorns and rainbows. Maybe I’m not really submissive….maybe I just need really kinky sex and a man to put me over his knee. Maybe it’s all a fairytale…..