On March 6th I was at work when a friend of mine screamed down the hallway "Liz, are you pregnant"? I hadn't seen Teniesha in a while, she works agency and hadn't been assigned to my building........so I cussed her up and down told her to get away from me I'm just getting fat🤦🤷!!! In my defense I hadn't been touched since July 2018 and wasn't even entertaining any idea of a possible relationship!!! And I wasn't feeling well! But I knew something was wrong I had had horrible indigestion the last few months that kept me up at night, constipation and just general weakness all the time, I was also still menstrating so the thought of pregnancy never crossed my mind, plus living life like a rockstar will ware on you eventually right!!!
So to begin the process of elimination I went ahead and bought a three in one pregnancy test!🤷
HOLY FUCK!!!!🤦🤦
That first pregnancy test went positive so fast it would make your head spin!!!! And it did, so I peed on the second one, it went faster then the first one did because it was digital. That's when I finally sat at the dining room table and smoke 3 cigarettes straight to the face, I peed on the third one but I left it in the bathroom I didn't even want to see it.
I called the only person I could think of, my dad...... He was so excited, which shocked the hell out of me!!! My father is very old school and I wasn't planning on marrying anyone soon. But of course he asked me about the baby's father I told him I knew who it was and didn't plan on telling him because the last words from him were "this weekend was just about fun because I'm interested in another woman" had I known that before the camping trip I wouldn't have done some of the things I did!!!! But none the less he was excited and told me to call my mom and I did!! She was even more excited!!! Hoping for a granddaughter because she doesn't have one lol..... So while everyone is excited, I was not.
This wasn't part of my plan and I was single!
That night I literally just sat on my couch chain smoking marijuana cigarettes and muttering to myself "Elizabeth you really got yourself in a fucking situation this time", lots of "what the fucks" and mostly feeling stupid all driven by anxiety that I couldn't get under control even though I smoked enough weed to kill a horse nothing was working!!
March.7.2020
so I went to the emergency room the next day just to see where everything was at!....I had complained about some pressure in my pelvic area and the doctor immediately got an ultrasound machine......
Doctor: well the babies head is 37cm!
Me: what's that mean?
Doc: your 37 weeks pregnant!
Me: HUH!!!
Doc: and the babies head is down, explaining the pressure on your pelvic region, I'm sending you to the healthplex, I think your going into labor.
Me: uumm okay!!
4 very long hours later I get released, I'm not in labor, not even dilating but I did find out a baby girl was on her way and I have about three weeks left, she has a good strong heartbeat 10 fingers,10 toes and everything looks good, just waiting on my lab results!!!!!
March 11 2020
I go see my baby doctor and she has me do a glucose test and everything seemed to be going fine until that very afternoon when she called me saying I had gestational diabetes and they were inducing me in a week.....😲
March.18.2020
Doc comes in tells me after 16 hours of contractions, that babies not progressing fast enough so we're going to do a C-section and you'll be a mom in a few hours!!
At 5:59pm......that love parents talk about, that instant kinda love,t kind that you'd move mountains for or rip an enemy to shreds protecting........I got it bad the moment they handed her to me!!!!
I got it so bad I didn't even sleep The first 48 hours she was out of me, because I would just stare at her like a psycho and she had burped and milk came up and I thought she was going to aspirate in the middle of the night while I was sleeping......🙅not my kid!
I was pregnant a whole 2 weeks and still went to work everyday. My co-workers seriously rallied together! put together a nursery and I still haven't had to buy diapers and she's almost 3 months old!!!! Also changed my schedule around so I'm home mon thru Fri then granny takes her Saturday and Sunday, so I can work double weekends!!!!!!! Everything has just kinda fallen into place.
I even told baby daddy and after a week of trying to meet for a DNA test and to talk about options, even though I told him I didn't need him, and was only letting him know to keep my own conscience clear, he finally said he didn't want anything to do with us and I'm just fine with that!!!!
Elena Renee....my princess!
Blessings on blessings on blessings
🤷🤭If I could figure out how to put a pic on this ......I would!!!
