From Sir to u

It's been over a year since I lost my kitten and I still have not recovered. I was her Sir.  Sir trained her from the newbie she was to the trusted submissive.  On occasion, kitten will come around, but she won't stay long.  I don't even know if the submissive desire she had even is lit.  I remember when she first started she was so unsure and very much a brat.  After a scene, she would quickly scamper away.    Over time, the trust was built and the scenes got more involved.  It was through these scenes and the trust, I earned the ability to make her cum with my fingers and my tongue. She earned the right to orgasm by asking the question "Sir, please may I cum"   She answered to Sir.  When she would orgasm within the scene or away it was with Sir in mind. This alarmed her as it was unexpected.  To this day, it is still the case. 

Spanking, choking, breath play, strap down, and toys became about the scene.  kitten would even come specially dressed for the occasion in corsets and on one occasion a trench coat.  These were all so appealing to me, pleased me and excited me so much.  

At times, we both had others in our lives.  We managed to keep the D/s going.  However, she had a strong connection with one other, yes even in a D/s way.  Selfishly I always wanted kitten to be my sub and not shared even though it was 2 different kinds of D/s.  Mine was impact play based.  Despite the chemistry and pleasure kitten and Sir had, I made the choice on Dec 31, 2022, despite the words of my friends that I was making a mistake, to try a relationship with an ex one more time.  I left kitten behind and caused her tremendous pain and I broke her trust.  A couple of months would go by and we would be back in our lives again and then off again.  After I chose to break up the relationship with the ex the final time, I contacted kitten and discovered how bad kitten was hurt as the trust was broken and has not been able to be repaired.  From time to time, kitten will come back to Sir, but the trust remains broken and kitten stays protected and at a distance.  kitten very much still keeps her Sir in mind when she orgasms as she admits.  I miss the D/s with her tremendously. 

(Very vanilla) I waited for her in the parking lot.  She always runs a little late.  I was already out of the car when she pulled into the parking lot and got out of her car.  WOW! Who I saw before me was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, and her yellow dress looked absolutely stunning on her. I was just as proud as I could be to be walking in with this gorgeous lady. We went in and sat at the bar.  She ordered her favorite cocktail, and I ordered some pinot grigio. She ordered some muhammara for us to share.  As we conversed, I made sure to continue complimenting this exquisite lady siting with me.  The muhammara was delicious, and the conversation was perfect.  It was a fantastic evening.  I told her after drinks I wanted to go to the busiest place in town so everyone could see me with her.

After a few drinks, one too many for me, but I held my own, we left the bar.  Again, I was in heaven, as this beautiful lady walked out with me.  Yes, I made sure to open her car door as she sat into her car.  We didn't have much time this evening so off to the bookstore.  Whenever possible I made sure to stand close behind her as her fragrance made me so turned on as if the dress and the lady before me hadn't already do it.  This was not your usual evening as we did a quick trip to target. As we went through the aisles, a violent storm came through and knocked out the power in the store.  I broke out the phone flashlight and we continued to an aisle near a wall as its always the people in the middle aisles in the horror movies who get hurt, lol. As the lights stayed off, I was able to enjoy her kisses.  There's nothing like her kisses.  They always feel perfect. We eventually made our way through the darkened aisles.  Its amazing how many people insist on shopping whether there is light or not.  We found our way to the furniture section and she found us a couple of comfy chairs to enjoy.  We sat in the darkened store holding hands.  Emergency lighting came on and thus we went back to the few items she needed to pick up along with some curtains for my recent updated dining room.  We made our way out of the store as the storm had subsided.  An amazing rainbow could be seen from the parking lot.  Time had well passed as she needed to get home to her kids. I bent down and enjoyed her kisses once more as the evening ended.  The beautiful lady with the yellow dress which looked so stunning drove off.  I met up with her on the road and was able to pull beside her briefly and enjoy that million dollar smile. 

It may not have gone exactly as planed but the evening was one I will not ever forget. 

While I enjoy passing along my Dom knowledge in forums and posts, I have a real issue with passing along knowledge to former subs.  I would rather for them to go look it up in forums and blogs then for a former to enjoy the fruits of my knowledge with someone else.  If someone you had an emotional D/s relationship with asked you for advice to use with someone new, how would you handle it?  

How do you recover when you submissive decides suddenly to leave?  How do you handle the feelings of loss?  Is it supposed to feel like a vanilla death?  My Dom feelings don't just turn off as they are a part of my life. I am for the most a Dom who gets very emotionally attached to a submissive.  I love my submissive especially this last one.  I can't imagine any other way though I know many people in the lifestyle just like participating in the D/s roleplay.  Any advice on how to handle when a D/s relationship comes to an end especially for the Dom?

She can't stay away.  She tries.  She hates to admit it.  At the end of the day, she knows she's submissive and knows who satisfies her submissive cravings; me, I'm Sir.  I am an exceptional Dom.  I don't have to ask how to do something during an activity.  I've asked questions ahead of time, understand expectations, set guidelines and most importantly, watch and listen, focusing 100% on the submissive.  Watching her body movements, the her facial expressions and listening to every word or moan that comes out of her mouth.  You see I focus entirely on her. I don't stop in the middle of an activity for Q&A.  I make sure the submissive knows I am in control and will satisfy her wants and needs as well as those of my own, that's me Sir. Just focus on the submissive.  What makes it worthwhile is when the submissive tells you that you are the exceptional Dom and Sir understands what to do.  

By watching and listening, Sir knows her pace.  Sir knows when the submissive wants to be touched, how she wants to be touched and where.  Sir knows how the submissive wants to be spoken to, the tone, the cadence and when the sub wants to be spanked. Spanked hard and deliberate with Sir's bare hand.  Sir knows this and knows when the submissive needs to hear that she is a good girl and when the submissive needs a moment to quench her thirst or at the end when she just wants and needs aftercare.  Sir knows how to take the submissive to the places in her mind she desires the most.  At the end, the look the submissive gives Sir, is one of obedience and satisfaction as the submissive curls up to Sir.

Recently, sadly, the submissive tried with another to recreate that satisfaction. She asked questions trying to find answers to achieving the connection she had with Sir.  It's annoying until you learn of their lack of success to recreate certain moments.  As learned during Sir's early learning, if you train the submissive right, the submissive will come back to you. When the submissive tells you despite her actions, she sees Sir's face and hears Sir's voice. Sir receives a feeling of incredible satisfaction.  The submissive knows which Dom will protect her and take care of all of her needs. The submissive knows who has the right touch and demeanor. Yes, they do come back to you. 

I'm just communicating an experience. For better or worse...probably worse. Just rambling...

It's been a tough time recently. The person I enjoyed D/s with has moved on.  The end to a D/s relationship is really hard especially after quite abit of time has been invested. I'm an exceptional Dom who wants to be the only Dom in someone's life. I understand some people can play D/s with others, but it just seems odd to me.  I'm much more on building a relationship and earning someone's trust to enjoy D/s.  I've always worked hard to emphasize communication, communication, communication. With communication comes trust. Trust is key to a D/s relationship. With trust comes the ability to explore many avenues within D/s.  For me, there's also a close emotional tie that also comes with it. 

I always like to know where I stand with someone. When someone tells me, I don't know, to me, it means they don't want to say. Honesty is key to a D/s relationship.  Some though want the benefit of the doubt. Webster defines benefit of the doubt as the state of accepting something/someone as honest or deserving of trust even though there are doubts.  My biggest flaw is not giving someone that benefit of the doubt.  I've been burned several times in the past.  After giving someone the benefit in the past, the truth would come out later and it would make me feel embarrassed and foolish, like I was the only one that didn't know. 

In this instance, this person had very close ties to another male friend.  After a couple of trips where the two met up, the D/s part of our relationship ended abruptly. When I made an invite to D/s, the person said we don't do that anymore without any explanation as to why.  A couple of more invites were made, and the same response was received. I asked about their connection and as you can guess that didn't go well. Benefit of the doubt was brought up and caring more about what happened on the trips instead of the person.  Which is probably true and was a mistake on my part.  However, I like to know where I stand with people so I'm not the fool again.  What makes this worse is it happened over text! Like high school. 

It drives me crazy having deep and/or serious conversations over text.  You can't tell someone's facial expressions and it simply makes it too easy to say things you would never say in person.  Turns out, people have quite the mouth on them while texting, lol.  I can work with a phone conversation because someone's voice tells a lot.  You can tell emotion from voices and people are much more likely to be civil when voices are involved. By the way, it is true, when someone starts cursing at you, they have lost control of the conversation.  I do make a lot of mistakes and hope to learn from them.

It's hard when a D/s relationship ends. Emotions, communication and trust.  

I was asked recently why I prefer newbie submissives or strong experienced  submissives. I prefer them because I am building a good foundation of trust and communication. I listen and pay attention to the submissive. My total focus is always firmly on the submissive. I want both of us to have an incredible and safe experience. I read and listen to what more experienced Doms have to offer and I am exceptional as a result of their teachings and knowledge. I don't just run out here and try something without learning about it.

If the submissive wants to play with other "doms"  then I send them on their way. I dont need to be concerned about contradicting teachings.  I don't  have time to fix messes as a result of an inexperienced "dom" who won't pay attention to the submissive's actions or concerns. 

What are my standards?  I want the experience to be fun and safe for both people. I want the submissive to receive the benefits of my 100% focus and effort so we can both have incredibly rewarding experiences. I encourage inexperienced Doms to take your time. Read, ask questions, study and pay attention to the needs of the submissive.

This is an odd post.  Pull up a seat to the bar.  I've had the pleasure of a few submissives over the years. Some just ended because of work or life in general.  This one is different or so I thought . When you find an intelligent sub that you connect,  you get attached even though that may not have been your intention.  While in a D/s relationship with me, a submissive expressed that she would be pursuing a relationship outside of the D/s realm with another, but still wants the D/s play with me. Have you run into this scenario?  I wish I could say the scenario doesn't bother me at all, but there's that small hint of irritation. This new scenario makes me want to try to view the D/s play as an arrangement that exists soley to satisfy our D/s needs.  The worst part is when you are told by the submissive, the suitor or lady suitor has heard about our D/s play and has started reading up on the subject. Unlike the sub, I immediately think once the suitor finishes reading, they will want to try out their new knowledge.  A newbie, an inexperienced Dom will want to copycat the play with the submissive and I think, all the training I have given will probably go straight to hell. Thoughts?  LOL

The ideal scenario of course is to find that one who has a desire to enjoy D/s and one day maybe would like to be exclusive or even collared. The sites are full of people with fakes or robots after your financial info.   I've dated and cautiously approached the D/s subject. Surely, it would be easy to find a person with a desire and need for D/s, but in certain rural areas of the country, its just not that easy to find. Usually you get a strange look of disbelief of the topic if you bring it up while watching a movie or show that mentions the subject. My favorite is when you playfully spank her ass during sex and you either get stunned silence........, immediate stoppage of sex or you hear "don't ever do that again" followed by laughter and  "no really, don't ever do that again".  I wonder on a rare occasion, is my D/s desire, want and need important enough to me to pass up a nice, sweet person who has zero interest in the D/s. Can you extinguished the Dom burning inside of you? 

Do most subs prefer online or in person Dom's?  I'm the kinda Dom that likes the sound of a hand spanking a sub while she lays across the Dom's lap. In one scenario, I enjoyed her strapped to the bed, blindfolded and seeing from across the room her phone light up with a text probably from her ball and chain at home. It seems online, subs want it rough and to be pushed to all kinds of limits.  However, in person, she runs at the though of being fully taken by the Dom because that means to her she fully belongs to him.  Online subs seem to be topping from the bottom.  They don't have to commit and there's really no way I see of keeping her inline.  An online sub can abide by any rules they want.  I admit I did enjoy the times the sub would send sexy pics of her in bed or zoom with you doing something sexual, but its still within the confines of a tv screen. Maybe this is the future of D/s?  Also, if a sub has several online male friends from around the globe who she "talks" with knowing from what she has said in the past that the subject goes into the sexual realm, how as a Dom would you handle such a situation?  Is this just part of the life of an online sub? I am asking as I am just wanting to understand the mindset of an online sub. 

I am also curious about what would you do if  a sub said aloud in person, "at this point I would let you do anything you want." Would you throw the list of agreed rules out the window to shut her up and show her how much an aggressive, alpha male you can be OR do you just chuckle at her words knowing if you acted she would run home as soon as play was finished?  Yes, as a respectful Dom, I abide but the rules, but I sense from the sub almost a wish to toss the rules out. 

Let's be clear, nice guys win in the end! I am a nice guy. Many confuse being nice with being weak. Certain women say they don't like nice guys so they pass on us not knowing that when the door is closed and the lights are turned off, I can make a "bad boy" look like a choir boy.  This nice guy I am is a Dom. I make women moan, cum and forget their troubles. Yet, so many take a pass, so they can go after "bad boys because they have watched too much porn or read too many trashy novels.  These women have no idea what they are missing. 

For the nice guy, its hard. You are taught to be polite, respectful and nice and yet many women treat you like some weak kid. The funny thing is they don't realize being nice means power for me.  It gives me access. It gives me the ability to get anything I want; most of the time, lol. Ask for something naughty out of the blue, and because you're nice, just one last time, she will show you her nipples, just as an example. So much for being a nice guy. Still the stigma is there. Women don't want to fuck a nice guy or have a nice guy as a Dom, but they love a nice guy to come running to when things go wrong.  It's safe. there's the word. You get to be their Prince Charming until the next bad boy, LOL. It sucks, but it is reality.  What's rewarding is when you catch up with someone who thought you were too nice. You get to see where she is today and realize most all of the time, you dodged a bullet! Now, see what happened as result of her decisions and what she has settled for in the end.  That disaster situation could have been yours, nice guy. 

This all stems from recent experiences. A woman I pursued for years romantically, but would never go out with me because she wanted a bad boy, is now interested, because all the bad boys are gone away.  She was pleasantly SHOCKED to learn about me being a DOM.  Too bad my feelings for her after years of trying have taken their toll on me.  Bad boys don't stay, they just take their worthless souls either to the next younger woman or back home to their wife.  The second, the sexy and intelligent woman, one of my former subs, came to me asking after a morning out, why every man was a liar.  Easy to see what happened here. The second is interesting, as she does not believe my compliments for her, and its just me being, wait for it...."nice."  How soon past subs forget that while their ex or current boyfriend or even hubby is back home, their ass is tied up in my bed being played like a violin by me, and I'm the "nice" guy, LOL. 

So nice guys don't get down, realize you have power from being nice. Use it well and enjoy it.  Also, karma can be a really good friend.