Brand new to this, but older guy... does that make me a freak?

Ok... here I am a 55 year old guy. I have these sides of me that I want to explore.

I know there is an exhibitionist side of myself, and want to know if I'm actually brave enough to let that out. I've been caught accidentally once or twice... and while I was embarrassed...I was at the same time... turned on... but I've never been able to explore that.

I have considered the idea of nude modeling, even thought of trying to be a stripper, but do not exactly think there is a market for a 55 year old for that, and I'm not sure if I'd actually be able to in front of women.

Just not sure how to even start this new journey, I'm somewhat shy, definately socially awkward, and want answers before I'm truly old. Just want to know how to start, and not come across like a freak.

Call it a mid life crisis, whatever... but alot in my life is changing, I'm playing sports again, getting more and more in shape.. and want to live what I'm calling life part 2 as me. Whatever that is.

Never too old to embrace your inner kink and be who you really are.

... what she said.

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And no, you're not a freak. People come to liking this stuff at varying life stages and while it's probably a good idea to keep the exhibitionist side under wraps (I was into that as well but kept it as "Only a fantasy") because one has to be almost totally certain the "viewing audience" is on board because one wrong set of eyes (even purely by accident) can run a person the risk of an "indecent exposure" rap and nobody wants that.

So, thoughts of leaving the bedroom drapes open for when I get out of the shower and before I pull on my bathrobe has to stay in the "Nahh, better not." column.

But as for the rest, why not? explore, enjoy, and above all, be patient.

First off, welcome to the community friend.

Secondly, there is no such thing as judgement and shaming in this lifestyle. The entire point of BDSM is being a sex positive and safe space to explore the aspects of yourself that "normal" society shuns. If anyone does that while also identifying as being part of this community? They are at worst hypocrites if not outright fake practitioners who are here with some agenda.

There are no hard rules to follow except that always respect boundaries and have clear consent between everyone involved. That means the people who can see this wonderful new exhibitionist side of you needs to have been a willing audience in the first place.

Other than that, keep growing my friend. I am excited for this new chapter of your life.