Depression

Kelpi • Sep 29, 2024

I read and wonder if it is a good idea for me to vent here anymore. Wow I can't believe I said all that. Need to read my own post from now on. Demisexual is a great word and it is something I understand. I lived with a woman who I was so attached to that at times when we kissed I would get dizzy and almost hit the ground. I do miss those lips. It is because of her I can see things clearly now and I understand things better. She is also why I live alone now.

It is better to live alone than to share your misery. Except I am not alone. I have friends who bug the hell out of me everyday just to make sure I am ok (personally I think they are bored and just need someone to bug the hell out of). I will never say it would be nice to have someone with XX in their DNA to talk to. Do not get me wrong I know plenty of XY ladies it is just when I go for a prostate exam I don't want to have to make two appointments. Am I wrong for that? I want to laugh but somehow I think I am wrong if I do.

Out of sixty two years I think I may have had four with a sub. Not their fault it did not work out but back in the day kinda like now I can't say no when someone needs help. To be honest I think it was more that they wanted to be the only woman in my life when my heart has so many rooms for those who came before. Then again if you look back and you're able to say you hate someone it was not love. My wife cheated on me with anyone she could. I do not like her for what she did but I have two daughters because of her. How can I hate her and love them?

UHM OK. Sorry Baby Love I seem to have done it again. I get lost sometimes and I can't even remember what I started on. Be well dear friends and know that yes there is someone out there who will be there when needed. They may not be perfect but they will be there for you when needed. Just give them a chance when you meet but be carefull no all knights wear armor and acting like a knight does not make your one. (Check with your local union).