rosethorn(sub female)
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5 years ago •
Nov 30, 2018
emotional masochism
I am exploring the possibility that I might be emotionally masochistic. A few months after considering this, I have come to the conclusion that I have a background of emotional instability (that's the best way I can put it) this comes from a good place but is very destructive for everyone involved... its acknowledged outside this lifestyle and I have people I can talk too but in this lifestyle I have no one, im curious now around the idea of being emotionally masochistic... or if I have just become used to functioning under high levels of stress I now panic without it..
 again any insight and discussion around emotional masochism would be appreciated.
Thank you rose x |
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MasterBear(other butch)
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5 years ago •
Nov 30, 2018
Can you elaborate on being emotionally masochistic?
I.e. give examples |
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rosethorn(sub female)
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5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
I don't function well under mild pressure but very well under high pressure. wanting to please people aka Dom or Sir, combined with high pressure situation its a little like constantly want to please but keeping within your own boundaries.
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rosethorn(sub female)
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5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
Not explaining this well at all am I... sorry.
I am very used to functioning under stress/ pressure what ever you want to call it... something I have noticed is if its not there and im comfy and happy I can create the pressure/ stress making it hell for anyone else involved... it could be something like cooking a three course meal in two hours and if not done I disappoint the other person. that's difficult for me. But having someone who understands the need for that pressure (im trying to get better with it, I know it isn't great), its like being in competition with yourself, While making your Dom happy. |
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| Trinity08 |
5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
I also have this, mine is built around my upbringing an i find it very destructive in a relationship with others, i have found dbt therapy great an if you have someone i.e your dom who you can be totally honest with its great, i always explain it as being in a battle with myself an sometimes i just need to explode to be calm again
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rosethorn(sub female)
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5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
battle with yourself is a good way to put it, constant competition its exhausting
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| Trinity08 |
5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
It is very much so an its rare to find people who will totally undertand unless they know you on a personal level
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rosethorn(sub female)
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5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
you do need a deep level of personal knowedge to pull it off and not cross lines
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| Trinity08 |
5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
Its a real struggle i will under extreme pressure of feeling i might fail do things push my limits and beyond to try not to an if i do fail its the end of the world for me emotionally
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FabSeverus(dom male)
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5 years ago •
Dec 4, 2018
[quote="rosethorn"]Not explaining this well at all am I... sorry.
you explain it very well in your first paragraph...." I have a background of emotional instability ". this is where is coming from. But it might be a dangerous path to pursuit whith a wrong Dom. |
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