I suppose when it comes tomthe lifestyle... im a crafty vetter. 20+ years in the lifestyle I love. With all its ups and downs. Leaving this life has crossed my mind more than a few times. However, being a submissive is very much part of the fabric of my being. There is no leaving, as that would be denying who i am.
Very much a subscriber of the old ways. That is how i was taught. How i was brought up and groomed into this life. I appreciate it. I respect it. I stand on protocol and the rules set forth in my upbringing. I was taught that my submission is a gift to be given... not demanded. I am a true submissive with the heart of a slave. I long for the discipline, guidance and structure only a true dominant has to offer. I have been mishandled and abused. Compassion, understanding and love is what I seek. I offer my submission in order to allow my dominant to become the ultimate version of himself. To find a connection that transcends this world and ultimate trust and understanding.
I was taught that soft limits are to be tested in order for growth. Hard limits are not negotiable and should never be crossed because that would cause physical, mental or emotional harm.
I have grown as a person and as a submissive. I am not who i used to be.