With nearly half my life behind me, my day-to-day has become the hum-drum of existence that seems to be the norm for so many Americans. It's time for a change, but change is such a terrifying prospect that I find myself paralyzed. Mustering the strength not just to face change but to enforce it will take something more than I've yet been able to find within myself, but I am searching.
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I place a great deal of value on intelligence and struggle to find common ground with those who do not express theirs in the way that they communicate. Intelligent discussion is one of my few pleasures in life, and I find no joy in discussions that have no purpose or direction or express a lack of intelligence. I have no problem with ignorance, so long as it is admitted freely rather than covered with smoke and mirrors, but I am unlikely to communicate long with someone whose messages do not convey intelligence.
As that is the case, if you wish to communicate with me, I would encourage you to lead with something purposeful and well-considered. Small-talk is unappealing to me, but I welcome intelligent discussion from anyone who is equally capable of it and enjoys it as much as I do.
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If you value labels as a method of understanding another individual, perhaps you might benefit from knowing a few that I feel apply to me.
I am:
Demisexual
Sapiosexual
Heterosexual
Neurodivergent
I've long known that I was born to submit, but I've never found anywhere - or anyone - safe enough to learn from, much less live for. My experiences are severely limited, and what few experiences I've had have not been positive ones. I blame them on my, then, youth and poor judgment of character. I have a need to submit so engrained in me that I am desperate for it, but I find trust to be both hard to give and hard to come by. I know full well that I have a lot to learn, and I will be nobody's perfect submissive until I make considerable progress; still, it is my hope to learn.
I'm not looking for an online or long-distance dynamic. I am interested in seeking the friendship and knowledge of intelligent like-minded individuals, but if your interest in conversing with me is for online play, look elsewhere; this is a hard limit for me.
Beyond that, the extent of my limits is unknown, even to myself, but the checklist helped some. I have a few hard limits and a few soft ones. Here are a few that stand out.
Hard limits: Scat, Golden showers, age play, animal play, stupidity
Soft limits: humiliation