Hello!! I’ll call myself Cookie for now, I’m 22 years old, Puerto Rican. I’ve always been the obedient type by nature but over the years I’ve always craved a deliberate way of control and guidance. I’ve always wanted someone who would observe, shape, and bring me to my full potential. At the same time, I have a naturally dominant curiosity..I’m fascinated by people, dynamics, and things I don’t yet understand. I have the tendency to explore rather than simply accept. I naturally gravitate towards submission, but curiosity has brought out a more assertive side of me.
I’ve never been in a D/S relationship, never dealt with the dynamic but I’ve tried my best to conjure up what I’d imagine I want to feel guided and changed without being erased. I want to be whole, not hollowed out. to give up control to someone who can understand and honor the weight of it. I want structure, discipline, but also affection. A balance. I want my submission to be earned and appreciated not demanded, I’ve never reached out to anyone before and my weak attempts would end up scaring me from the whole concept. So please, be patient with me. I will not submit to someone who won’t respect my boundaries even if they’re soft or shifting and if I’m being reshaped it will have to be with my consent, pace, and our mutual benefit. When I take the lead, if I take lead— I’d want to be firm without being cold. I like the idea of being the sort of dominant who earns obedience from her care, notices every little detail, and isn’t afraid to correct bad behavior. Punishment would be deliberate rather than cruel. Something as simple as making him write the same sentence fifty times until the lesson actually sinks in. But afterward, I’d still want him to know he’s cared for. I’d praise him when he does well, reassure him when he needs it, and make it clear that my strictness comes from wanting to see him improve. I want to be the hand that disciplines him and the person he feels safest coming back to afterward. I hope this is enough of me to share.
Disappointed but never surprised.