TobeforHim

sub female

67

The meaning of a leash to a me? A leash is security; it allows me to know exactly where my Master is and gives me a sense of safety. A leash is a sign of ownership; with a leash on, i know my place and it is a continuous reminder of that relationship i hold so dear.

am i at a start of a new trail, where will it lead? i do not know, but i do know that i walk a small step behind You. Looking towards You to guide me, that You will pull me into You with a simple look, a word, or a command. The journey from the self-indulgent creature i am to the slave beauty You desire.  A journey that will be fierce and difficult at times, one that will push me to the limit and past it, one that will find You throwing me off a cliff over and over again, to be waiting for me at the bottom, to catch me and say those two small words that make me want to please You more….”good slave”.  It’s amazing how two small words can cause my spirit to burst forth, two small words that make me want and need to fall on my knees in front of You, back straight, head held high, eyes cast downward,  legs spread apart and palms on thighs.
You reinforce me to just how quickly i need this. How long it has been since i was truly in this mindset and just how wanton and needy i am.  A connection of energy, of trust and of honesty. It is framed by the mutual respect, adoration, and admiration felt by both and a great deep fulfilling love can be found in and through it. And in my life, i strive for that deepness, it beckons me, calls to me.

Watersports, anything extreme, blood, scarring, sharing, animals, extreme choking, anal sex, but toys are fine.... along those lines

I have been in the lifestyle 20 plus years. I have experienced different levels of control, from checking in to being micromanaged, all depends on the Dom. I have never lived with my Dom, but always wanted to. Circumstances make it tough, because I cannot relocate because what's left of my family is here in Maryland. What makes it tougher I live with a friend, because it is very expensive to live here, so cannot host. 

May 2026