Thought I'd update the profile after getting back on since it seems the vagueness has people coming in from all angles (and I'm a little overwhelmed, I swear I'll start trying to respond). AND I'M SORRY FOR THE LONG READ- I'VE NEVER BEEN CONCISE A DAY IN MY LIFE :(
Some of my non-kinky interests include music (dad rock, alternative, IDM...), video games (shooters! mostly. not going to say I'm good at them however), long-winded debates where I can pretend I'm smarter than I really am, and a good movie.
Proceed with caution: I'm bullheaded and facetious. I can't turn it off. I've tried!!
I like to ramble and I've got lots to say about nothing. My most favorite hobby of all is filling the air with words.
And because I'm too shy and also... OPSEC... a brief description: I'm 5'2 (do the conversions yourself metric freak), 115 lbs... and we can get into the rest if it goes well, call it paranoia.
I'd really like to take things slow and just chat for a while. LAST ALSO: I'm completely open for just FRIENDS too! :))
Total honest and a little more clarity:
I'm !!!!NEW!!!! to this!
I hate to play the "look at me I'm so innocent" card, but I truly don't have a lot of the answers to some of the questions I've been asked. I'm learning a lot.
That being said, I think BDSM has always piqued my interest. I've tried bits and bops of it in the past, but think my introduction in practice was a little rocky.
I have a hard time truly breaking down what I like. I do believe there is a fine line between fantasy and reality. I've learned that some fantasies are much better to be left as such, but that doesn't mean I'm not willing to give plenty of things a try.
I am 100% submissive, that is a non-negotiable. Trust me, I tried the dominant thing. It was completely uncomfortable and foreign, and left me feeling outside of myself. Submitting is grounding for me, helps me feel like ME.
As much as I enjoy pleasure, I want to please. And sometimes that means being reminded I'm doing so. I'm trying to be better at communication, because I've struggled in the past, and I really value a person who's willing to be patient and work on that with me.
I don't want to have control. I hate it. I want structure and rules... and consequences for breaking them or.. whateva.
I don't know if I'm doing this right, feel free to let me know if I am lol. This is all to say, I think I just want to try a dom/sub dynamic, and we can explore what that really means together :)