I want someone big so that I can be small, to set protocol, routine , rules to keep me from having to think of the world outside that demands so much of me from 9-5. I want someone with power , someone to make the decisions and to take control so that the burden of responsibility is lifted. I want someone big to restrain me , contain , restrict and bind me so that I don’t keep reaching for something that can never be. I want someone big so that I can be small, that will wrap around me creating my tranquility speaking words made of velvet in musical tones feeling comfort and warmth finally allowing the luxury of sleep.