New here and in this world overall. My background is very “good girl”, I was basically raised like an 18century wifey material (lots of classy high society skills that I found useless when I was younger 😅🙈). I always heavily relied on my intellect and charisma to get me ahead in life, then I moved to Europe and realised apparently I’m hot hahaha (cause my half Russian/half Bulgarian background bullied me into the “if you’re not skin and bones you’re fat” mindset) so that’s when I gained an extra super power and started to learn to wield it. The fact that I can get ahead or get away with things just because I’m good looking was genuinely a discovery to me, because I didn’t consider myself hot but others did, so I just decide to roll with that. The problem was that that made me a little bit of a spectator so I took a bit of passenger seat and instead of exploring myself more I just went on basic autopilot that I am now getting out of and starting to dig deeper… but this is all just a preview to give you an idea of the “why” .
I struggle to say “no” to trying things haha, maybe one day this will get me in trouble but until then …
I like simple things and less simple things, it depends. I like everything wet, slippery, bukake, creampies, pussy pumps, hickeys, golden rain, cuckolding, cnc, humiliation in certain amounts, also thought about the free use and like the child play,etc just really anything that is presented to me in a hot and exciting way I will be willing to try and usually find hot !
I am very very wet when people tell me dirty horrible descriptive things, which mostly people aren’t very good at (including myself, I’m trying to work on that though!)
So yeah, im here trying to figure things out and just see where this goes .
I really want to be submissive, to let go and be fully controlled by someone. At times I’m like a child, too exciteable , too naive, no filter, want protection and nurturing … but on the other hand am not naturally predisposed to be submissive AT ALL. I have a very dominant, outspoken, even controlling at times personality, so if the other person is not stronger than I am emotionally, mentally, physically, maybe even intellectually, more experienced, more in charge so to say, then I will sooner or later take over and dominate them …
I'm into anything that has power play in it, I have tried some things irl but far from everything that I’d like to try. I find it difficult to explore my needs, wants, desires because I feel like I need a guide into it but I also need to be very attracted to that person and so far I haven’t met someone very knowledgeable and physically attractive to me, those tel tend to not coexist…… it’s either a very sweet man (or a strong one that I break quickly) who is immediately swayed by me and then starts to treat me like a crystal vase OR it’s someone who has a lot of experience but I’m not attracted to them OR men who are attractive and we have a good chemistry but they are not very experienced nor dominant enough to take me to where I’d like to go.
Wounds, blood, scat, probably other things as well but that depends on the specific person I’m with, tbd
Exploring what are the things I like and don’t like, apparently I’ve always been not in touch (actively avoiding) my own sexuality in its full range, my needs and desires. So here I am figuring it out