My central kink is long-term, increasingly irreversible transformation through ownership and conditioning. I want to become an exaggerated, old-fashioned Japanese “oyaji” caricature: bald, fat, hairy, smelly, badly dressed, crude, shameless and ridiculous. I don't mean a handsome older man, a stylish bald guy, a muscular daddy, or a costume I take off after a scene. I want the change to become part of my everyday appearance and identity.
Baldness matters a lot to me. I'm especially drawn to severe male-pattern baldness, eventually a Norwood VII / NW7 horseshoe: the hairline, top and crown essentially gone, leaving only a low fringe around the sides and back. A gradual progression and the contrast between my young face and unmistakably old-man hair pattern appeal to me more than an ordinary buzzcut. I'd like my Owner to decide whether the remaining fringe is kept short or worn in an embarrassing, outdated style.
I am already short and fairly heavy, and I want to go considerably further. Feederism and controlled weight gain could make my body heavier, softer, rounder and more stereotypically middle-aged, with a bigger belly, thicker waist, heavier face and softer chest. I love the combined image of being very short, increasingly fat, extremely balding, hairy and dressed like a ridiculous old uncle rather than a conventionally attractive young guy.
Slobbification is another major part of the fantasy. I'm interested in grooming and hygiene control, body odor, scruffy facial and body hair, greasy or poorly groomed looks, worn clothes, old white briefs and sleeveless undershirts, a haramaki, outdated shirts and sandals. I also like crude habits such as scratching my belly, farting, nose-picking and messy eating becoming normal rather than one-time humiliation. Even deliberately silly or bad-taste tattoos or body modifications interest me as part of the character.
I want the behavior to match the appearance: old-fashioned speech, bad jokes, exaggerated reactions, silly poses, belly dancing, animal impressions, ridiculous noises and embarrassing party tricks. Humiliation and dumbification appeal to me because I want to become the person everyone expects to be crude, childish, shameless and funny. Being laughed at would reinforce the role. I like the idea of practicing these performances until they become genuine habits and skills.
What excites me most is the transition from “I'm doing this because my Owner ordered me to” to “this is simply how I behave now.” I want clothing, grooming, speech, posture, crude habits and reactions to baldness jokes to become automatic. Hair, body, wardrobe and behavior would change gradually, leaving fewer traces of the conventional young man I started as. The irreversibility and long-term identity change are central to me.
I would love an Owner who enjoys designing that progression himself instead of merely following a checklist. What MPB/NW7 look would suit me? How heavy should his “oyaji” become? What clothes, facial hair, grooming and habits would he choose? What embarrassing party tricks would become my specialties? His creative control is a major part of the attraction.
I'm looking for a long-term M/s, ownership or TPE dynamic that could become part of everyday life, eventually in person and perhaps live-in. My interests include feederism, controlled weight gain, male-pattern baldness, appearance and grooming control, slobbification, body odor, humiliation, conditioning, personality molding and irreversible transformation. If you can imagine your own plan for turning me into a bald, fat, hairy, smelly, crude and ridiculous “oyaji,” tell me what your finished version of me would look like, how he would behave, and what you would change first.