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Blissful Enigma
New Jersey, United States
Blissful Enigma
Gender
Female
Age
40
Relationship status
Single
About me
Please take a few minutes to thoroughly read through my profile prior to messaging me as it may reveal some answers to your questions in regards to who I am as a submissive and woman as well as what I am seeking as a submissive. Those whom wish to message me; I kindly ask that you have a profile written out as I find it honestly rather lazy to not put enough care into your page that you are unable to reveal much about yourself. Now I am aware many don't write about themselves to the extent I do and that is perfectly fine but please have at least a paragraph in your about me section therefore you do not appear rather empty to me.
Finding the words to introduce myself feels quite the challenge as the journey I am on in many ways is still starting off and I am hoping to learn and grow with a dominant man or woman whom can truly respect what I may choose to offer as a submissive. As my profile I tend to look for the best things in my life as I am an optimistic kind of submissive. I identify as an demi/sapiosexual being; I find myself an inquisitive learner as I am constantly learning and growing throughout my journey. With a high sense of intuition, desire to please others, compassion, and creativity I find myself growing as a woman and submissive. Despite being an introverted type of being; within my relationships I am rather passionate and loyal to my partner once he has my complete trust and we have completely opened up to one another. To those familiar with the MBTI Personality Testing; I am considered an INFJ and I believe a read up on the type is valuable as I share many of the traits revealed throughout the personality analysis. I will admit that I have always been a people pleaser as I adore seeing those around me content; while I am happy in many ways with how I live my own life. I do miss being in a long term relationship and I’d prefer to have that type of bond in my life. I am also rather romantic and enjoy showing my emotions as due to my creative nature I will admit I am rather expressive. Yes expressive and guarded. It may be quite the paradox within me but real life experience has taught me to be careful whom I give my trust to as I do possess a giving nature.
In my spare time; I am an avid book reader; some of my favorite authors include Dorothy Dunnett, The Bronte Sisters, Jane Austen, Diana Gabaldon and George R R Martin to name only a few authors that I find myself going back to. I am also an aspiring novelist; since I was young I have always wanted to write my own stories; and I am writing my own historical trilogy at the moment. Additional interests include history, psychology, attending the theater. I recognize many people are intrigued about BDSM through Fifty Shades of Grey; however for myself it was Anne Rice’s Sleeping Beauty Trilogy and Jacqueline Carey’s Kushiel’s Books which intrigued myself into learning more of my submission. I generally am a submissive whom prefers to look towards the future rather than the past as the future is full of hope for myself as I continue upon my journey. Its been a number of years since I have trusted myself to a dominant; as I wanted to take some time to rebuild myself after trusting myself to the wrong type of partners whom came to myself. Now being older; I have learned and grown from trusting my submission to people whom did not respect what I had to offer them. As an older woman now I would prefer to slowly get to know a part rather than rush into a relationship therefore we can both see with our eyes open what type of dynamic we are getting into.
As a woman whom has grown up with a learning disability; as an adult I thrive in the world with my high sense of intuition and creativity; while at times I do comprehend information about half a minute slower than a person without a disability; generally its hard to notice. These day my disability very much resembles ADD and yes I get distracted quite easily however I am constantly working on the flaws I have. Initially I considered not discussing my disability as in the past the dominants I had served could not accept my flaws. Regarding mental illness; the anxiety in my life; is very much attached to the learning disability or so I am told by my physicians. The PTSD I also have but its separate from my learning disabilities; due to a traumatic experience I went through in my late teens and it comes out extremely rarely; but its still present. Despite all these weaknesses; I do my best to put my heart and soul into each relationship I am involved in which means my submission runs very deeply.
Finding the words to introduce myself feels quite the challenge as the journey I am on in many ways is still starting off and I am hoping to learn and grow with a dominant man or woman whom can truly respect what I may choose to offer as a submissive. As my profile I tend to look for the best things in my life as I am an optimistic kind of submissive. I identify as an demi/sapiosexual being; I find myself an inquisitive learner as I am constantly learning and growing throughout my journey. With a high sense of intuition, desire to please others, compassion, and creativity I find myself growing as a woman and submissive. Despite being an introverted type of being; within my relationships I am rather passionate and loyal to my partner once he has my complete trust and we have completely opened up to one another. To those familiar with the MBTI Personality Testing; I am considered an INFJ and I believe a read up on the type is valuable as I share many of the traits revealed throughout the personality analysis. I will admit that I have always been a people pleaser as I adore seeing those around me content; while I am happy in many ways with how I live my own life. I do miss being in a long term relationship and I’d prefer to have that type of bond in my life. I am also rather romantic and enjoy showing my emotions as due to my creative nature I will admit I am rather expressive. Yes expressive and guarded. It may be quite the paradox within me but real life experience has taught me to be careful whom I give my trust to as I do possess a giving nature.
In my spare time; I am an avid book reader; some of my favorite authors include Dorothy Dunnett, The Bronte Sisters, Jane Austen, Diana Gabaldon and George R R Martin to name only a few authors that I find myself going back to. I am also an aspiring novelist; since I was young I have always wanted to write my own stories; and I am writing my own historical trilogy at the moment. Additional interests include history, psychology, attending the theater. I recognize many people are intrigued about BDSM through Fifty Shades of Grey; however for myself it was Anne Rice’s Sleeping Beauty Trilogy and Jacqueline Carey’s Kushiel’s Books which intrigued myself into learning more of my submission. I generally am a submissive whom prefers to look towards the future rather than the past as the future is full of hope for myself as I continue upon my journey. Its been a number of years since I have trusted myself to a dominant; as I wanted to take some time to rebuild myself after trusting myself to the wrong type of partners whom came to myself. Now being older; I have learned and grown from trusting my submission to people whom did not respect what I had to offer them. As an older woman now I would prefer to slowly get to know a part rather than rush into a relationship therefore we can both see with our eyes open what type of dynamic we are getting into.
As a woman whom has grown up with a learning disability; as an adult I thrive in the world with my high sense of intuition and creativity; while at times I do comprehend information about half a minute slower than a person without a disability; generally its hard to notice. These day my disability very much resembles ADD and yes I get distracted quite easily however I am constantly working on the flaws I have. Initially I considered not discussing my disability as in the past the dominants I had served could not accept my flaws. Regarding mental illness; the anxiety in my life; is very much attached to the learning disability or so I am told by my physicians. The PTSD I also have but its separate from my learning disabilities; due to a traumatic experience I went through in my late teens and it comes out extremely rarely; but its still present. Despite all these weaknesses; I do my best to put my heart and soul into each relationship I am involved in which means my submission runs very deeply.
BDSM and me
My desire to have structure and gentle guidance provided by a dominant has always been a part of me despite the length of time that I had not served in real time capacity. I feel that the desire to surrender in a relationship and submit feels natural despite how independent I may be in my vanilla life. I adore knowing despite how together I may appear publically that privately I may be able to release the stress through my submission releasing my trust to another. Trusting in my dominant to make the choices for me; not because he doubts my own mind and being; but quite the opposite that he values what I have to offer him in all capacity.
Now throughout my profile; I may being considering the traits I wish for in a dominant man; however if I happen to find a female whom possesses what I am seeking I shall see no problems in submitting to her. In my past I’ve been involved with both men and women within relationships; I find that it’s the aura of the person whom leads my submission. My sexuality has always been too complex for me to define with a single word; I chose bi-sexual as I am attracted to both genders but its more the soul and heart of the person and their ability to lead me than how they appear from the exterior.
I will admit that I see myself as a submissive although there are other roles such as little girl, pet that I may relate to however I do not have enough real time experience to know for certain as my real time experience has been limited. While I am seeking an D/s relationship with a dominant I trust full time M/s is not completely out of the question however I want the relationship between myself and the dominant figure in question to grow gradually. Trust and communication remains very important to me as I recognize the more open I feel a dominant is with me; the more of me he shall hold in return. Once I find myself in a loving and stable relationship with a dominant; I find much of my anxiety fades away as I know with a responsible partner that I am provided with much reasons to trust in my partner. As I want a gentle dominant whom provides me with structure as well as high standards and discipline; a Daddy dom or otherwise a dominant whom has similar values may fit well into my orbit. I prefer to meet a potentianal partner whom is between 30-50 of age.
Now throughout my profile; I may being considering the traits I wish for in a dominant man; however if I happen to find a female whom possesses what I am seeking I shall see no problems in submitting to her. In my past I’ve been involved with both men and women within relationships; I find that it’s the aura of the person whom leads my submission. My sexuality has always been too complex for me to define with a single word; I chose bi-sexual as I am attracted to both genders but its more the soul and heart of the person and their ability to lead me than how they appear from the exterior.
I will admit that I see myself as a submissive although there are other roles such as little girl, pet that I may relate to however I do not have enough real time experience to know for certain as my real time experience has been limited. While I am seeking an D/s relationship with a dominant I trust full time M/s is not completely out of the question however I want the relationship between myself and the dominant figure in question to grow gradually. Trust and communication remains very important to me as I recognize the more open I feel a dominant is with me; the more of me he shall hold in return. Once I find myself in a loving and stable relationship with a dominant; I find much of my anxiety fades away as I know with a responsible partner that I am provided with much reasons to trust in my partner. As I want a gentle dominant whom provides me with structure as well as high standards and discipline; a Daddy dom or otherwise a dominant whom has similar values may fit well into my orbit. I prefer to meet a potentianal partner whom is between 30-50 of age.
Limits
If you have the intentions to meet me and nearly skipped this part; my advice is to read through it rather thoroughly. I shall be discusing what I am not seeking in a partner which may helping you in skipping my profile if I am not the right one for you. Beneath that I shall also discuss my limitations as a submissive. While I am turned on by a confident dominant; arrogance is a huge turn off for me; I watch how a person I meet treats others such as how he may treat those around them. This is important to me as I value my vanilla relationships and I want a relationship that I don’t need to hide.
If I feel for any reason I need to hide my relationship it may bring negativity into our dynamic. I am a non-smoker/non-drinker and I would prefer that I have a partner whom is not addicted to smoking/drinking or drugs. As you may be able to figure out as trust and communication are important to me; lying is a huge limit of mine. While I understand that it takes time to open up to one another; I despite finding out that I have had my trust to be used, manipulated and lied to. Please be honest if we are not compatible rather than simply dragging me along. It would also save both of us time. Within relationship I am not good with abandonment or being ignored; as if I feel ignored in such a way; knowing myself I’d ignore the dominant as well. Can you understand why that may not be a good way to communicate if we are both ignoring one another?
Please refrain from bringing up one’s worth especially in initial messages; as if you are trying to frame me as being less than yourself as a dominant; why would I not be trying to find out your worth to myself as a submissive? I will also admit I am not good with superiority attitudes. Now moving along to further limitations in terms of my submission which is honestly a bit harder for me to discuss as I am still learning about my own limitations and turn offs. I may discover further limitations due to my anxiety and PTSD due to previous experiences in my life. To begin with a huge limit is Rape play as I don’t think it shall be enjoyable for me to relive such an horrible experience for me. Additional Limits include: Permanent Harm to my body; no mutilation nor lasting damage. Scat, Severe Pain. Not willing to do anything illegal. Limits shall be added to as I continue to learn myself as a submissive.
If I feel for any reason I need to hide my relationship it may bring negativity into our dynamic. I am a non-smoker/non-drinker and I would prefer that I have a partner whom is not addicted to smoking/drinking or drugs. As you may be able to figure out as trust and communication are important to me; lying is a huge limit of mine. While I understand that it takes time to open up to one another; I despite finding out that I have had my trust to be used, manipulated and lied to. Please be honest if we are not compatible rather than simply dragging me along. It would also save both of us time. Within relationship I am not good with abandonment or being ignored; as if I feel ignored in such a way; knowing myself I’d ignore the dominant as well. Can you understand why that may not be a good way to communicate if we are both ignoring one another?
Please refrain from bringing up one’s worth especially in initial messages; as if you are trying to frame me as being less than yourself as a dominant; why would I not be trying to find out your worth to myself as a submissive? I will also admit I am not good with superiority attitudes. Now moving along to further limitations in terms of my submission which is honestly a bit harder for me to discuss as I am still learning about my own limitations and turn offs. I may discover further limitations due to my anxiety and PTSD due to previous experiences in my life. To begin with a huge limit is Rape play as I don’t think it shall be enjoyable for me to relive such an horrible experience for me. Additional Limits include: Permanent Harm to my body; no mutilation nor lasting damage. Scat, Severe Pain. Not willing to do anything illegal. Limits shall be added to as I continue to learn myself as a submissive.
Update date
Jun 26, 2020
Member since
Jun 23, 2020