Sometimes I'm scared I share too much. I know that's the point of being a sub. But it opens you up to possible pain. Is it strange that it is easier for me to share my body than it is my mind? My deeper thoughts that are only reserved for me.
Body YES
Desires YES
Deep thoughts HELL NO.
If I let them out I can not take them back. I have been encouraged to share to not hold back but that little voice in my head says "what if". I hate that little voice. That demon of doubt. He stops me from accomplishing so much sometimes. I know though within myself that if I unlock that little box burried inside that it will be hard to close should I need to. That is the part that scares me the most. It will either build me up or bring me crashing down...... So I guess the point is. I want to share. He wants to know. So why is it so bloody hard. I will continue to trust my gutt until it tells me I'm ready. Until that voice is stopped and I can take a leap.
