Silent Observations

Redtailedkitty - A virtue I do not know very well either. I am feeling that way right now as well. Maybe it is time to disconnect and then I wonder if anyone would notice....and then I chastise myself because I’m not the center of the universe, ya know. LOL

Our minds are the worst enemy. Don’t you wish there was an off button or at the very least a pause button or slow motion button...something so we can just rest.....sleep...enjoy...feel and not THINK.

Did you come up with anything?

Starlight82​(other female) - I ended up doing some creative erotica writing. Helped a little. Think I am just in a mood this week lol Hope yr feeling better too xx

Ocelotgoddess - humans are naturally pack animals. many animals we mimic also are. what that means is we sense a need and desire to be around others who have similar interests for preservation and protection of our way of life. if you feel you may be surrounded by others who would shame you for your lifestyle this may trigger a stronger desire to be here often and seek out or need validation. also, there is literally a slew of chemicals released in our brains that stimulate cell growth and health when we feel accepted, loved. your body may sense a deprivation of these chemicals and need more of them to be healthy right now. also, you may want to examine your life at the needs not being met. we many times consider it the responsibility of a mate to meet certain needs of ours. if you feel you are unable to meet your needs at this time, you may push harder to have your needs met online...

Ocelotgoddess - what you sense as a demon, can really be a biological need you are not having met.

Starlight82​(other female) - Thank you. You are very right we do often look to others for our happiness. In general I am able to be in control of my own happiness and it appears that my body was picking up on something that my head had not realized yet. Some things have come to light that have answered my internal questions. I obviously need to listen to my own warning systems a little better lol. Thank for your insight ☺

Ocelotgoddess - this is a step and a sign of submission of a sub for a master, with it is a vulnerability and trust that your master will meet the need you have. this is why it is so important to take it slow as with this vulnerability can be a need not met or limits crossed without a way out. pay attention to your needs, and communicate them to your dom if you trust them. whether they be emotion from the intense chaos outside this cage or a true basic need, like bills paid. if not, take a step back and meet those needs coming back after to play

TakenLower - I have this same struggle and it has actually caused problems in our relationship. To circumvent this I have asked for him to at least send me a message every day. I put it in the contract we are currently negotiating lol I have it BAD.

Starlight82​(other female) - That's good. I have also added to my list of expectations to have daily contact as a minimum a good morning and good night ☺

TakenLower - I’m ok with just one. I don’t know why it’s that way. I know he’s busy, and I know he’s not leaving me so why do I get so crazy. I can not explain it. I am not like that with anyone else on the planet and I never have been.

Ocelotgoddess - one thing I've thought about doing is setting aside spacidic times that i will commit to checking the site, and have them do the same. That way we know to expect mail, we can be excited for it, and still enjoy our own lives. With a few surprise days or something where we mail more often