Im actively seeking a new path at the moment. I have had about 4 or 5 months of happily sitting in a place of nothingness after going through the excruciating process of letting go of guilt. One of the hardest yet most rewarding processes I've done so far.
My heart and mind are destined for more than what I can comprehend and I am now trying to open them up again to keep gently progressing forward.
To try and have no agenda to my emotions. To not dictate to them where they must flow but rather embrace whatever direction they might lead me. I am a person used to control so this is not an easy process for me. Im nervous and excited to see where I end up. Seeking out my fears and vulnerabilities. Seeking out to be able to let go of preconceived ideas of how I have been told or shown that my life should be. Accepting that I have been allowing other people's fears to drive MY decision making and trying to step away from that. This will take some times. Lots of time. But I am already starting to see the benefits. Welcoming new open people to my life who help keep me on my path. Communicating more clearly with others defining my intent and learning to not apologise or justify myself just because I feel awkward. To just be my true self.....
For anyone interested here is a light hearted researcher giving a talk on vulnerability.
