It has been an emotional week for me this week. I have had some reality checks, been kicked in the guts and questioned myself....... a lot. I have had some positive notes but tonight I got what I needed.
The love and laughter from my children I've missed. It seems like forever since they were last with me. My week has felt like a month. We spent the first hour just wrestling, tickling, cuddling and covering their soft faces in kisses. Its amazing how they help me. I had felt quite lost. Like I had made the wrong choice. Lonely and life felt unpredictable. And then I saw them. Felt their little arms around my neck and laughter filled my heart. I love these little creatures I've created. They love unconditionally. And that is exactly what I needed. Now as I watch them sleeping I realize how lucky I am.
Yes I crave to find that special man to hold me tight and love me so. But I will not sacrifice for that. I have my angels and my dominant will find me eventually. I'll just leave the porch light on