I learnt an important lesson last night. I am way to analytical. So much so i use it as a defense. It makes me emotional and i pull myself apart. I think i have done this my entire life. If something scares me i analyze it until i either justify not doing or partaking in something, or exhaust all possibilities and remove the simple fun aspect. In a lot of cases it has kept me safe. Ive always had a level head. But sometimes i wish i was a little more care free.
Im at a point now of a crossroads. I need to stop my usual approach and lead with my heart. Otherwise i will forever be stuck in this revolving pattern. It is exhausting always thinking.
There is only so much i can learn from questions, blogs, forums and my friends.
There is only so far that i will explore at an event.
Ive always learnt better from doing rather than reading.
And there is no going back to where i was. So..... i either sit still....... or move forward.
Trying to let go a little more each day so that i may be freed completely
