I wrote a blog post not long ago titled "A Quick Note", which was based on how I felt about a certain problem that arose recently, Well now I'm going to expand upon that as things have only gotten progressively worse.
So for context, I've been working on this project for a few months now alongside a very eager team. Part of me was looking forward to it as everyone seemed so passionate, but since the beginning, problems began to arise. Firstly the people who were in charge of organising things wasted a considerable amount of time, which put pressure on a lot of us who have to work on the mid and end term part of the project, But I was confident it was doable as I've been put in that position before.
To my surprise I was approached by the person in charge of the team, someone I knew and who had similar level of experience as me. He vented his concerns and issues which was completely fine, everyone needs and outlet and I wasn't going to give him hassle about it. In the end we agreed to just work our hardest to get through the project. But things continued to deteriorate.
Members of the team were beginning to stress out more and more since we were halfway through our timeframe at this point and hadn't made much progress and a reoccurring problem people had was when they stress out was they try take control of the situation, which normally is an admirable quality but in this case, it just undermined the solutions the person in charge of the team had come up with. I would continue to hear a lot from said person throughout the project as he was stressed the most and trying his hardest to try rework the project every time a new issue arose. I felt bad for him because no one saw how much effort he was putting into this behind the scenes, the man was almost in tears and yet he would continue to be undermined.
It was around this point I wrote the blog post "A Quick Note", as a member of the team couldn't take it anymore and abandoned her responsibilities. Of course this angered the person in charge quite a lot but we moved past it on continued working since we were running out of options. Our time frame continued to close and we were entering the final phase of the project, that's when we ran into one more catastrophic hurdle which happened last night. Another crucial member of our team left before we could complete three very important days, after which I have never seen my colleagues more upset, we were at the point were we had to decide whether to just end the project there and then, but thankfully once again, that hard working coordinator of ours pulled us out of the deep waters of problems and got us back on track.
After all this, undermining, stressing, venting and constant setbacks, we are still here and working. In the coming weeks, I'll be taking over the majority of the work as it's my area of expertise and I fully intent to continue to put my all into it, despite the exhaustion of all of...this... back and forward of problems.
Why am I saying all of this? It's because I want people to know that I'm not upset, yes we ran into many hurdles and problems, but I'm not angry or sad... I'm just tired..
But that's fine, because I know what we have to do and our team is guided by one of the strongest individuals I've ever seen, even if he doesn't believe it himself. So whatever conclusion we reach for this project, I'm content with it.