I haven't posted anything for a while.. so I suppose I should give an update.
I found a wonderful Miss to serve! Funny, very involved in conversations, personal and helps me make changes to be a better person!
Since I met this person, our involvement and conversations could be described as :
- Exciting
- Terrifying
- Limit Breaking
- Nerve-wracking
- Experimental
- Heart Racing
- very Hot~
- Personal
- Honest
All in all, it was a wonderful experience.
She helped me try new things, Things I never I never thought I'd ever try... some things where a little frightening at first, others.. very Sexy~
But.. that didn't last.
I suppose you could summarize what happened next as:
- Misunderstanding
- Confusion
- Escalation
- Apologetic
- Disconnection
And just like that, it was over in a flash. Like nothing happened, she was gone with a "I have to go", I never heard from her again. Left me with all this confusion.. how am I suppose to feel about that... she helped me try new things, better myself and become what I am now, then she was gone.. Threw me aside like I didn't even matter, like non of it mattered.
Did any of it matter I wonder?
Did she even care? I don't know anymore.
Was I just an idiot who saw things differently.. or maybe wasn't even there to begin with.. maybe..
Funny part is, I don't even know how to interpret the last thing she said. For context, we were buying some new kit, her idea of course. spent the whole day picking out things, was a lot of fun and before she went she said "Enjoy your toys".. was that genuine? Was it a snarky remark.. like a possible "Go fuck yourself?", perhaps maybe just an empty goodbye. I don't know.
Whatever, I'm tired of thinking about it. What's done is done, and the past should be passed and left alone.
And that, dear readers... is my update.
-Update-
(Finally spoke to her.. shared feelings and we parted on pleasantries, somber ending but a far better one)