None of this will make sense but when does life ever make sense 😉
YOLO
You only live once! Life is unfair bit we are all stuck with it.
My week is being a struggle. Mentally separating myself from Dom. It's unfair but has to be done. Wish I could just say it's because time is up but he doesn't realize it's deeper than that. I hate I fell for him.
But telling him that I could die makes this unbearable. I look at my children eyes and try to picture what it will be like for them without me...& then all I want to do is fight something that has no cure and seeks to sadistically disengage every part of a human possible. Spent 7 years winning...so I am bound to losing some fights.
I can't tell my Dom this and shatter him. I'm not as worried about him breaking it off with me as I am of shattering his heart. Poor guy is clueless sometimes but I care deeply about him. It's not fair that I have to worry about everyone else but it's what I do. He already sense something is wrong and has started separating himself from me emotionally. He should. He's protecting his heart.
I want to cry in pity but can't feel sorry for myself. Gotta fight...even if I'm fighting alone. Gotta have a lot of fun along the way.. because if I don't survive, I will at least had alot of fun!
~~Roughed up babygirl