Wish someone would hold me tenderly.😣🥺
Was just trying to take a nap after walking my dog and going to the gym. Yet right after I started to sleep, a light scream turned into jerking motions which startled me and feelings of terror quickly overtook me.
No sleep yet, my body's tense, and I'm practically crying.
Having been abused as a child caused me to carry anxiety to this day.
I have worked on overcoming it, but it can overwhelm me sometimes and I haven't the faintest idea where it's coming from.
Thankfully many people in my life understand or at least try to.
I talk about my real life emotions and experiences since : if I am going to trust someone to kink with that person also needs to appreciate how I'm damaged.
I am the embodiment of Wabi-Sabi.
Wabi-Sabi a Japanese aesthetic concept that finds beauty and serenity in objects, landscapes, designs, etc., that are simple, imperfect, and impermanent:
It's the philosophy of wabi-sabi, which delights in the tarnish on an ancient silver bowl and the old uneven cobblestones.
My scars tell the story of a survivor who appreciates and lusts for life -- not that I am a broken.
