Random thoughts of steph

i just signed up today for this site. I am not sure what I need so am freaking out about when people ask. I know I need a mentor.

I have to say my first dick pic was a shock. Why?? Nudity that is Arty is hot, a scene well played is hot. Your dick just dangling there?? Weird. I assume if your male you have a penis. You don't have to show me.

I am worried about the picture thing. I am not 18 and sure as hell not a size 2. I am ok with my body but have experienced too many that aren't. I am hoping this community is different. 

I don't want to cyber or skype or have phone sex. I left the last place I tried for that very reason.  

I want to learn why I feel the need to give up control and more about this lifestyle. 

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