When i met my Goddess about a year ago She sat me down and conducted a thorough and proper interview on me. She asked all the right questions most Dommes would to make sure there weren't any immediate deal breakers before moving forward with things. Questions about my childhood, mental/physical well being, family or relationship situations, drug issues, and all the important things worth getting out of the way early on. It was a night i will never forget, for two reasons..
#1 - i finally met my first true Domme that was willing to give me a chance to earn my first collar, which i did.
#2 - It was also the day i withheld seriously important information from Her out of fear of another rejection.
i answered all questions quickly and honestly, except one. i had been so desperate for so long to experience my first true acts of submission, that i didn't tell Her about past health issues that She truly needed to know about from the start.
As O/our bond grew it killed me more and more to keep the secret from Her. Then recently i knew it was time to let Her know, even though i might lose my collar in the process.
So earlier tonight She decided how She wanted to approach the situation and how to punish me for my actions. Once it was done, She told me its all going to be ok and that we will move past this. i nodded silently, already knowing that i wouldn't be able to forgive myself nearly as quickly as She did, considering the nature of my confession. So here's my question to A/anyone that has experienced something like this before and would like to share how they handled it..
Has anyone felt guilty as ever even after severe punishment was given? Even after She held You close afterwards to calm you and explain that it's over with and She understood why you did what you did?
i want to move on as She told me to do, but the guilt won't let me.for awhile yet. How do i move on when i still feel so guilty..?