Dear diary,
I've always had a hard time with exposing myself on the internet. I can say I have never felt comfortable posting pictures of myself which is the reason why my insta is so dry. But on here, I get a sort of adrenaline rush to post something scandalous. I know I don't Have to but, to some degree, I feel as if that is what I am supposed to do. I don't have the clothes for it so guess who's making an amazon purchase within the next couple of days?
The question is always "Would I actually go through with it?" In my mind, its an absolute 'Yes' without any hesitation. I'm afraid then when I actually get the outfit on and pull out the camera, I will get critical of my body. Some days I feel like I am on the hottest thing on the block and other days I feel like I'm The Thing on the block. But that what this experience is mostly about: self-appreciation, self-love, self-worth, etc. I want to feel amazing and take steps to where I am confident in my own skin.
Wish me luck, diary.
-Sabaody A
