Some Cool Title Here

You come out at night
That's when the energy comes
And the dark side's light
And the vampires roam
You strut your rasta wear
And your suicide poem
And a cross from a faith that died
Before Jesus came
You're building a mystery
You live in a church
Where you sleep with voodoo dolls
And you won't give up the search
For the ghosts in the halls
You wear sandals in the snow
And a smile that won't wash away
Can you look out the window
Without your shadow getting in the way?
You're so beautiful
With an edge and charm
But so careful
When I'm in your arms
'Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
You woke up screaming aloud
A prayer from your secret God
You feed off our fears
And hold back your tears, oh
Give us a tantrum
And a know-it-all grin
Just when we need one
When the evening's thin
You're a beautiful
A beautiful fucked up man
You're setting up your
Razor wire shrine
'Cause you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah, you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
Ooh, you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Yeah you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
Yeah, you're working
Building a mystery
Holding on and holding it in
Oh, yeah, you're working
Building a mystery
And choosing so carefully
You're building a mystery

I woke up today feeling the same as I have been for months.

Depressed, unmotivated and with this overwhelming feeling that I need to 'go home' even though I'm already here.

Despite this feeling I still woke up, did housework and took care of everyone like I always do. I paid all the bills, I did some work for my job even though I have the day off, I did some crunches and took a hot shower. Made brunch. Doing laundry. Took my dog for a walk. Made phonecalls. Went grocery shopping.

None of my menial accomplishments today fulfilled me. They never do.

I just need more and I need to go home. I hope I find out what this means soon.

R&R

I hope everyone has a truly fabulous New Year.

With that being said, fuck 2020!!!!