This is just a clarification post.
I wrote a post yesterday evening that I took down. The post was a reminder to me of who I am. Nothing more. Right now, I am living for the Good Mornings and the Good Nights of my day and that is all that I want at this moment. Nothing more, nothing less.
I hope this clarifies it to those that read it.
Thank you
<3
***A Reminder To Self***
What you see is what you get.
I am not perfect and I will never claim to be.
If I am wrong, I will own up to it and apologize.
I will not impose my will on others. (Exception is the obvious)
I am open to discussion and debate.
I am kind hearted and will bend over backwards for those in need.
With that said, do not mistake my kindness with weakness.
I say what I mean. Even if it is something you do not want hear.
I am honest about the things that I am asked and do not hide. Even if it can cause me pain.
I am broken, but I am whole.
I am not here to play games, I am here to make connections.
I am not looking for hookups, I am looking for the one.
I am firm on my vision and firm that hers aligns.
I am easily approachable and enjoy good conversation.
I am not looking to Dom anyone that has not submitted to me.
I will only be with one.
I am caring (Daddy but not DD/lg)
I am hers, and she is mine. Once she is found.
I am a partner.
I am who I am
Again, what you see is what you get.
"She Talks To Angels"
She never mentions the word "addiction"
In certain company
Yes, she'll tell you she's an orphan
After you meet her family
She paints her eyes as black as night now
Pulls those shades down tight
Yeah, she gives a smile when the pain come
The pain gonna make everything alright
Says she talks to angels
They call her out by her name
Oh, yeah, she talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
She keeps a lock of hair in her pocket
She wears a cross around her neck
Yes, the hair is from a little boy
And the cross is someone she has not met
Not yet
Says she talks to angels
Says they all know her name
Oh, yeah, she talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
She don't know no lover
None that I ever seen
Yeah, to her that ain't nothin'
But to me, yeah, me
Means everything
She paints her eyes as black as night now
She pulls those shades down tight
Oh, yeah, there's a smile when the pain comes
The pain gonna make everything alright
Alright, yeah, heah
She talks to angels
Says they call her out by her name
Oh, yeah, heah, angels
Call her out by her name
Oh, ooh, oh, oh, angels
They call her out by her name
Oh, oh, oh, she talks to angels
They call her out
Yeah, ee, eah, eah, eah, eah
Call her out
Don't you know that they
Call her out by her name?
In the years that I have been on this planet, I have seen all types of people. Those that stick out the worst to me are the ugly ones.
Now I am not talking about looks here, I am talking about attitude.
The attitude of "I am better than everyone else". Always putting others down no matter what the situation just so that they can feel big about themselves. Can never give a positive statement to someone without tearing them down. They have no accountability of their own actions but are quick to judge the actions of others. Then they try and recruit others to their cause to just make themselves feel right.
I am sure that we all have run across a few of them in our time. We even see it here on The Cage... My thing is this.... If you are so insecure about who you are that you need to beat others down to make yourself feel important, then you are the lowest of the low. Yes, you have issues and you are trying to cover them up and hide them by being ugly to someone else. There is no other reason for intentionally trying to hurt another person other than you have a problem. And know this, you will be unmasked and your problem will come to light. Stop trying to puff yourselves up by pushing others down. Stop trying to strong arm your point of view be demeaning others. You are no better than anyone else on this planet and your shit stinks just as bad. (Probably worse)
To those of you that have been on the receiving end of it. Know that it is not your problem but theirs. Do not believe who they say you are. You know who you are and that is where the truth lies. And remember that it is their ugliness that makes your beauty shine brighter. Be strong. Be fearless. Stand in the truth of who you are and do not let anyone tell you different. You are a threat to them. Uninvite those who are ugly from your life.
***This is just a song with a cool video. I am not advocating anything about this topic. It is just a song.***
"BREATH CONTROL"
by Recoil
Who wouldn't want a good girl, a soft hand
A gentle woman for a gentleman?
He said, "It's been fine so far but after a while
I want more than a soft style
I want some slashes
To go with those long eyelashes. "
"I like how the skins look on your white hands
I'd like you to deliver one of my demands. "
He said, "Every woman has an itch
And every nice girl wants to switch. "
He led me in and lit the room with a hundred candles
And said "God never gives you more than you can handle."
I sat astride his chest, "It's just a thrill," he said
As he relaxed on the dark, dark bed, "it's just breath control."
He whispered "Hold me here" and I did and his head fell back
He whispered "Press harder" and I did and his eyes rolled back
It's just breath control. Just breath control
I saw him go pale. I saw him seize up
I felt something creep up like a taste for this
Like a reward
A kind of love
A kind of lustmord
It was a minute then three then five then ten
He wasn't coming up again
I held on for twelve
I saw him seize and thrash and twist
And when he was still, I lifted away my wrists
And looked at my hands
And tried to understand
"It's just a thrill" I said
As he relaxed on the dark, dark bed
I sat aside his chest
"It's just a thrill," he said
"just a thrill. It's just breath control."
When it was over, I slipped off the skins
And drowned them in the river where we used to swim
And a year later in a shop, I was stopped by a man
He said, "I know you're looking for something that's hard to find
And I think I have what you have in mind. "
And he led me to a glass case
And looked deep into my face...
"It's just... control."
You said my signs were vital
That every wave was tidal
When you held me, you held me so right
You held me so tight
Left me emaciated
Still I'm not one for fadin'
Cause every moment made me feel more alive
You held me so right
The truth is that I couldn't fake this
Believe in you but I'm still faithless
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Maybe when it's feeling so right it's too wrong
Maybe you should take a little more time
Don't you let the love down
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Come take my body and my blood
Like some final communion
Cause a touch from you could make a soul right
Could make my soul right
I'm gonna dive, not coming up
I wanna drown me in your love
When I go too deep I don't wanna rise
No I don't wanna rise
Be false to say I'll walk away then
When I'm constantly this close to breakin'
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Maybe when it's feeling so right it's too wrong
Maybe you should take a little more time
Don't you let the love down
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Don't fade into nothing
(Don't you now)
Fade into nothing
(Don't you now)
Don't let the love down
Don't fade into nothing
(Don't you now)
Fade into nothing
(Don't you now)
Don't let the love down
Fade into nothing
Fade into nothing
Don't fade into nothing
Don't fade into nothing
Don't let the love down
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Maybe when it's feeling so right it's too wrong
Maybe you should take a little more time
Don't you let the love down
Maybe I've been going too deep for too long
Gentle, soft spoken non-demanding.
Is he soft? Does he have what it takes?
Is he really Dominant or am I going to Dominate him?
Is him asking just showing respect or is he just to soft?
He is very polite, is he really a submissive trying to play the part of a Dom?
Let me push a bit to see.
What was that that I just heard?
His laugh changed?
The tone of his voice changed.
It is still soft, but his speech comes from a deeper area.
It is direct and to the point.
It is if something has shifted.
His eyes have changed.
It is as if he is looking not at me but inside of me.
It seems as if... he is... stalking me as prey with his eyes.
Calculating my next move.
His breathing has slowed and become deeper.
His movements are now direct and with purpose.
His touch is still gentle but firm.
Daddy is no longer Daddy.
I have pushed and now have awoken the beast that is within.
My Master has arrived.
You speak and I hear you
Your voice resonates through my entire being
Your words burn deep into my soul
My heart melts with every syllable
I feel you as your head lays upon my chest
Your breath against my skin
The warmth of your body next to mine
Your essence permeates my nose as I breath you in
The taste of your lips pressed against mine
You cast your eyes downward as you surrender to me
You know that I am that safe place where no harm will come to you
Your trust has been given to me
Spirit, body, and soul
It is a treasure that will be cherished and protected
I will never let it go
I will take you to places that you have never known
Places you have only dreamt about
You will feel things that will be new to you as you continue down this path
Glorious and wonderful things they will be
Causing growth in areas that were once thought unattainable
With your hand in mine, we shall take this journey together
I will be your guide and protector, your light in the darkness
I will lead in this new dance that has been created
Step by step to the rhythm of life, through every verse and chorus
Working together as partners to create a beautiful artwork
So come with me on this new adventure
Let us see what is meant to be seen and feel what is meant to be felt
Let us pickup the broken pieces of our pasts and create a new picture
From our brokenness we shall create beauty
This needs to stop
now!!!
Say No To Snow in April!!!
What do you see when you look at the above picture? Is it just a symbol telling others in the lifestyle that we are brothers and sisters or does it symbolize more to you?
Sure, we can all go and find out what the meaning is from the creator by searching up “The Emblem Project “, but it also has meaning to people beyond that.
Not only do I see what the meaning is, I also see it as a continuous flow of power. The flow that is represented by the outer circle that is around the three parts of relationship represented as Me, Her, an Us. 2 individuals and 1 partnership.
The outer circle is the energy that is given by all 3 aspects and fills up all 3 aspects. It is a give and receive. Each person giving to the other and the partnership, as well as, receiving from the other and the relationship in a continuous flow. Each giving themselves fully to each other and the partnership. The Dom giving to the sub and the sub receiving and being filled. The sub giving to the Dom and the Dom receiving and being filled. All at the same time, both giving to the partnership and filling it. Seems like a simple concept. However, a concept is only that until it is put into action.
What is important to realize, for me at least, is that my partner needs to be on the same page as me. She needs to have the same “Vision” that I have. If she does not, then the flow will not work. There has to be an alignment. Let me clarify that there may be subtle differences, but the core of it needs to be the same, otherwise the wheel is out of alignment and the smoothness of the flow will be disrupted. It is like riding a bike with warped rims, it is doable for a bit, but eventually you will fall.
This is why it is important that each person takes their time when looking for a LTR in dynamic. You need to see if the peg fits properly. A square peg will never fit right in a round hole no matter how hard you try. Take your time and get to know the person that you are interested in and talk about your vision with them and have them talk about theirs with you. It is far better to know if it will work upfront with that info then to find out down the road that you do not align in what it is that you are both after.
Another thing that can disrupt that flow is the “God / Goddess” way of thought. “What the hell is that?” You ask. This is where people think that their partner in infallible and they should never do any wrong. They should just know your needs or you theirs. It is like I am a God and I should just know everything and be perfect all the time. Or She should know everything and be perfect all the time. I can tell you that you are going to disrupt the flow with these types of expectations. You will also find that your partnership will come to a quick and volatile end. Remember that we are all human and we all make mistakes. The flow allows for this as long as the individuals know this. I know I am going to make mistakes. I know that she will make mistakes. We are both humans and not Gods. There are going to be times that I am not going to be able to give my all and she will know and adjust. There will be times that she cannot give her all and I will adjust. That is why I use this saying - “I am strong and she is my strength as she is strong and I am her strength. Together we are are strong.” The flow brings and is Unity
I could go on and on, but I will save you the boredom of my philosophies on the subject. I will challenge you though to look at your dynamic, if you are in one, and study it’s flow. What are you doing to make sure that the flow is steady and continuous? How can you adjust and adapt to increase it and make it smooth?
If you are not in one, think about what that flow would like like with the right partner. What is the Vision? How can you start to prepare yourself for when you meet your partner? Remember that it is not 2 halves that make a whole, but 2 wholes that make a partnership.
~Eros
