Hi My Peeps!
I'm usually so shy but I'm beginning to feel comfortable here. Still searching for myself though.
So,
These last two months have been the most trying that I have ever had in a very long time. Spent last year dodging Covid only for someone close to me in my house to catch it. What should have been a 2 week situation of mild symptoms ended up being a 2 month nightmare. 4 hospital visits, several nights with little to no sleep, endless time crying ….never being able to hug, touch, or love on the person that was right at your fingertips but still felt miles away. When I took them to the doctor, they said they didn't have Covid. That's what they told the doctor. Their voice was so small when they said, "I have Covid". No set of eyes could look at them and the silence was deafening. Every heart was broken as a cruel reality set in, and even darker reality crept into the minds of doctors, who knew far more than I did that this was not simple.
I found solace in the lifestyle. Sometimes not having to thinking (which of course was this brat’s choosing) kept me from overthinking. An amazing Daddy Dom is what I have. I don’t understand how we made it this far…I know quite a few times he wanted to strangle me…quite a few we I wanted to strangle him. So many fights. So much work. Yet there is always something holding us in place even when we walk away. It makes us rock solid.
He was definitely a rock.. a chipped rock.. but def my chipped rock when Covid attacked not one but 2 family members. The many nights I cried and the many mornings he sat up with me…uncomfortably so was a testament to a character trait beyond being just a Dom but also a good person. From break up to make up and make up to break up…yep we are rock solid.
The best thing I have learned is that you have to love a person as they are. Don’t try to change them. Accept them with no strings attached. If they are meant to stay, they will stay. Hold on to that. If they are meant to leave, they will leave. Let them. People are not to meant to be caged birds (unless that’s your thing. Just be the best freaky person you can be🤪). I know my Dom isn’t mine forever but I’m sure going to enjoy while it lasts.
Now, tomorrow might be different. Probably going to want to strangle me. Awe hell! What am I talking about? That’s probably going to be tonight. Gotta keep it fun for he the both of us. 🤷 Smooches peeps!
Just Thinking Out Loud
~In Search of Truth~
