Sitting here wondering
What to do
Where to go
How to get there
Crying, depressed not knowing what's ahead
So many people relying on me for closure, for a sign of hope
Unable to find closure and hope in my own life
Looking for answers
Looking for a sign
Seeking guidance and a love of a lifetime
I tell others what Spirit has to say
Through the cards, through me
I'm unable to hear the messages clearly for myself
Putting me in desperation for a better future
A glimpse of hope, an ounce of sanity
Longing for peace, quiet
Desires to be fulfilled
Happiness and faith to be restored
Able to advise others
Unable to advise myself on my own life experiences
Unable to keep the faith
I urged others to do the same
Start forgiving and loving themselves
Which I was unable to do because of so much pain