Someone asked me, "what brings you to the cage"? Honestly, someone opened pandora's box and walked away. I was left with a part of me i fully didn't understand. A kind and blunt woman in one of my fb groups suggested fetlife as a starting point and if I needed any help just reach out to her and other advice I should have heeded at the time. Well needless to say, i spoke to a couple of people who were either discovering themselves (where I have met my ex sub and we're still friends) or have been in the LS for years (another lesson yrs of experience doesn't mean shit of you're a cocky asshole IJS. I remembered someone mentioning the cage, so I decided to join, alot better than fetlife imho. I have learned alot more here than anywhere and anyone else ( shit, I wish i knew about vetting along time ago). I'm learning how to deal with all that my pandora's box contains and how to cope with it all. I know what i need, not just what I want. I learning how to let my intuition guide me and not allow me to be suckered like before. I was always a trusting person (a little to trusting). I allowed myself to become vulnerable just to be thrown away like a broken toy. I know alot of you understand how that feels. You put your trust in someone, who promised not to hurt you like the others, you let your guard down and was fucked royally without any lube, and left in a pile of nothingness. Trying to figure out how to put yourself back together. The old me (queentee) is gone and will never return. I'm trying to put myself back together, even though there have been a few changes. When i used to do readings, I always told the sitter(s) never go back to who/what broke you. This holds true, at first I was going to leave then i thought, why should I because of one person? That person no longer has any power over me, love no longer exists (which was excruciating to do) and forgiveness given. For quite sometime I became bitter, which was definitely not me at all, that's when I realize a piece of me was taken without being offered. Bitterness is gone. Today is a new day and i'm becoming stronger little by little each day. One step at a time, one day at a time.