I had made the decision to walk away from the lifestyle for a couple of good reasons. One of them being no one is honest or could be honest even if they tried. I felt I was asking for too much asking a Dom for honesty as I was able to be honest and transparent. I came across abusers, liars, egotistical closed minded people who thought they actually knew they were the gift to all subs on earth. Immature, money hungry fuck boys who expected submission right away. .
I was emotionally destroyed to the point I decided that this isn't for me because now I know that I probably will never trust another man ever again. I worked so hard to relearn how to trust and that was taken away. I was taken advantage of due to me not knowing much about the lifestyle. My heart was ripped out and handed back to me. Now I'm back on the journey of loving my self as well as trusting myself and the decisions I make from this point on. I have gotten to the stage of forgiveness but I will never forget who, what, where, and how i was made to feel.
Thank you all for welcoming me. Maybe one day I will be able to come back for good.
P.s. beware, the most mystical creatures are the ones that will tear you apart.