A Cloud(sub female){Owned}

A moment and then another

I only exist in the space of the other. My strength, my joy, my love - We are the moments we share.

I have no title, no absolutes, no fixed adornment. I am not submissive in the sense that it is in me and absent in another. I am what I am at the time that I am. I am submissive to all and to no one. I submit to the world in complete faith of its wisdom, acceptance, love and deliverance.

I cannot be defined in absolutes but can be labelled with qualifiers just for common understanding and no more - ever disrupting, ever changing, ever subsiding, ever becoming.

I grow into another and another. Or is it that I strip down to become less and less.

Anti-hero

1 year ago. October 31, 2022 at 7:48 PM

I feel constantly pulled between breaking and putting myself back together.

I need to be broken, taken lower, but cannot give in to complacency or apathy.

Fear of abandonment?

No. Fear of being with my self. Of what I might do and say. How I might hurt myself. She can be so fucking crazy.

She's so hurt, so lost, so neglected. I abandoned myself. But I don't know What to do now.

The frustrating limits of my mind. When logic, the logic I know, is flawed. I hope to let go. Trying is no good. Try till I break. But it's all I can do when letting go and self compassion are so foreign to me.

I guess this is learning how to be the anti-hero. I really don't know anything.

Little moon(sub female){Not lookin} - Have you seen the new Taylor Swift song? Seems very appropriate 🤔. I'm sorry you seem to be struggling so much and hope you find some peace and guidance to help you soon🐾

1 year ago

A Cloud(sub female){Owned} - Yes I have seen it and got the title from there. Ilkke the video clip. I find music and art express feelings and ideas like a dialogue. Your comment made me think of the notion of claiming (or not claiming) ownership and status.
Thanks for the kind words :)

1 year ago

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A Cloud​(sub female){Owned}

A moment and then another

Anti-hero

A Cloud(sub female){Owned}