A Cloud(sub female){Owned}

A moment and then another

I only exist in the space of the other. My strength, my joy, my love - We are the moments we share.

I have no title, no absolutes, no fixed adornment. I am not submissive in the sense that it is in me and absent in another. I am what I am at the time that I am. I am submissive to all and to no one. I submit to the world in complete faith of its wisdom, acceptance, love and deliverance.

I cannot be defined in absolutes but can be labelled with qualifiers just for common understanding and no more - ever disrupting, ever changing, ever subsiding, ever becoming.

I grow into another and another. Or is it that I strip down to become less and less.

Anti-hero

2 years ago. October 31, 2022 at 7:48 PM

I feel constantly pulled between breaking and putting myself back together.

I need to be broken, taken lower, but cannot give in to complacency or apathy.

Fear of abandonment?

No. Fear of being with my self. Of what I might do and say. How I might hurt myself. She can be so fucking crazy.

She's so hurt, so lost, so neglected. I abandoned myself. But I don't know What to do now.

The frustrating limits of my mind. When logic, the logic I know, is flawed. I hope to let go. Trying is no good. Try till I break. But it's all I can do when letting go and self compassion are so foreign to me.

I guess this is learning how to be the anti-hero. I really don't know anything.

Little moon(sub female){Not lookin} - Have you seen the new Taylor Swift song? Seems very appropriate ?. I'm sorry you seem to be struggling so much and hope you find some peace and guidance to help you soon?

2 years ago

A Cloud(sub female){Owned} - Yes I have seen it and got the title from there. Ilkke the video clip. I find music and art express feelings and ideas like a dialogue. Your comment made me think of the notion of claiming (or not claiming) ownership and status.
Thanks for the kind words :)

2 years ago

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A Cloud​(sub female)​{Owned}

A moment and then another

Anti-hero

A Cloud(sub female){Owned}