I have learned not too long ago that I have dyslexia and ADHD, I'm 45.
Is those the reason why I can't connect with anyone. Why I struggle just to have A friend. I'm spent my life trying to fit in in some way. But ever since a child, my first day in school, I was the odd one out. I have no idea why.
I have changed myself so many times in order to fit in. I have multiple degrees, I'm a veteran, I can build a house, and well do just about anything. I don't talk much and this is the most bragging I have done in years. I'm humble and honest, which many do think as a low self-esteem.
Do I have depression of course I do, you can't go through all I have and not wind up with it. Almost everyone I thought I was getting close to wound up trying to take advantage.
I did find a old guard that has been helpfull and now that in out looking for something for me I find nothing but a barren wasteland. I'm not exciting to the younger ones as I put more into learning about them then on the “fun” stuff. I'm unsure what's up with the older ones. Normal I'm lucky if I just get a half harted response back. I'm not judgemental, the only person I except perfection from is myself.