I don’t know how to express my feelings anymore.
Yes, I have many emotions, a scorpio is a very emotional individual, however, an introvert.
Bottling up is a curse to those who practice it.
I feel that no matter how much I attempt to express my feelings, words fail me.
It feels like I’m chained, I know what I want but at the same time I’m clueless.
I crave ... constantly ... a craving that is never satisfied.
Craving feelings, sensations, trembles, and pain.
That is only one side of what I’m looking for, however, the rest is unknown.
I know it when I see it.
And when I see it, it vanishes.
Allowing my inner thoughts to doubt myself, my wants, my needs, my desires. To put them all on a weighing scale and see what is it that needs to be compromised.
I’m greedy, I want it all.
But either I find it all but it isn't Mine.
Or either one side of it is present but the other side to balance it isn’t, hence the scale is the solution to my the options weighing me down.
