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Where did I go wrong?

4 years ago. November 29, 2019 at 6:34 PM

Where did I go wrong ...

is it that I approached you first?
However, you said you wanted to be approached first

Is it that we played on our first time?
You said that you enjoyed it, you said that you’d want it again

Is it because I’m busy to talk 24/7?
Well maybe because we both are busy.

Is it because I initiate conversations?
Again, you said you wanted to be approached, and know that you aren’t wasting time. its a two-way street.

Is it because I’m looking for a relationship?
You are looking for a relationship too.

I don’t know where I stand, no matter how many times you answer the question. I want to be loved and cherished.

I want to feel wanted ... not an option. A distant option.

I don’t know how else can I do to make you feel what I am going through.

I often text, however, feel that I could be texting at a wrong time. So I back off. I am in a maze, I don’t know what else to do.

I just want to know ... where did I go wrong?

Belladonna Dreams(sub female){Phage'Hada} - I know how you feel but i know where ive gone wrong.

4 years ago

SeekingOne(dom male){Taken} - It sounds like you wanted more than they did. You shouldn’t feel like you have to “try” to be in a relationship. It needs to flow organically. If they don’t or can’t make time for you that’s on them not you. You did nothing wrong. Sending positive thoughts to you

4 years ago

Southern Mother(dom female){Learning} - I am going through the same. I am putting my all in. She is my first for everything.
We chatted and played and then she was m.i.a. for about 30mn. So I went to clean my house. Then came back. It was a few hours later. But the house was a mess. We had been playing for days on end. She seemed hurt. I apologized. And have checked in to tell her how much I Mommy loves her and needs her.
Then it felt like it was pay back. We didn't talk for 2 days. I was dying inside. Then 3 days. I was just beginning to move on.
Then she texted. She lost her phone. I communicated my needs. But don't want to be too needy.
Things were going good she made me feel wanted and needed. Told me everything I wanted and needed to hear from her.
Now again no messages. I moved mountains for her. I do that for NO ONE. My heart hurts.
It feels like I am being emotionally fucked. And I have no safe word.

4 years ago

CrimsonRose - Kenny Rogers put it well, sometimes you got to know when to hold them and sometimes you got to know when to walk away. Hugs and support. Blessings TX

4 years ago

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Where did I go wrong?

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