I’m not always good at actually verbalising my own feelings – I find that really hard. I don’t know why, maybe because it’s the innermost part of me and I’m a very private person. Not many people get to see “me”, they see a version of “me” the almost “me” but not the real, the actual “me”. Even with you I sometimes still find it hard to say what I want – to lay myself bare to you, but you are patient and I know you will wait until I can say what I need, what I want to say.
There was something between us from the start – we clicked immediately. You knew what I was feeling or trying to say without me saying it. I did something I thought I’d never do and let you in, trusted you and you have not let me down. You have been there for me, stood by me and supported me through my wobbles and insecurities.
When we are together (and even when we are not) I feel more love and adoration than I feel I deserve. I love the fact this is not all about sex – there are many facets to our relationship. I feel we have connected on such a deep and powerful level – you are like a drug to me. You are probably the kindest and sweetest man I have ever met and I love the fact I am on this journey of self discovery with you! We are both discovering our inner “D/s” relationship and I love that all my firsts are with you.
Don’t get me wrong the sex aspect is utterly fantastic and I’ve never experienced anything like it in my life, never experienced where nothing exists but the experience itself, my senses are heightened and my mind is in the moment, I’m not sure I’m aware of my surroundings, I’m not thinking about anything I am just wrapped up in our moment together. You said to me you can see the desire in my eyes – that’s down to the connection we have – down to how you make me feel safe and loved and needed – down to us knowing the other and what they need.
So I guess I wanted to say - I’m soo glad I decided to respond to your message, otherwise none of the utterly amazing experiences we have had would have happened and we would not have met. I love you and look forward to all the other firsts we will experience together and the special moments we will share. 😘
