Since meeting my Amazing Sir - I feel more confident in myself - I won’t say I’m super confident in comparison, I probably never will be but, I have noticed a change in myself - I feel happier and more relaxed about everything. It’s not until you notice you’re not feeling stressed or tense or anxious that you realise you felt that way to begin with!! Its a good feeling to be honest!
I feel more comfortable with who I am, I’m not saying there aren’t things I wouldn’t want to change about myself but I feel loved and wanted exactly the way I am. I can’t tell you how much that actually means to me!! The fact that someone can love me and want me and desire me exactly the way I am and not want to change me is something I’ve never experienced. For someone to actually say they love me as I am brings tears to my eyes! I’m unsure of how to process those emotions because, for once, I feel accepted for me - its a little bewildering and overwhelming and sometimes I will just revert back to being distrustful of intentions - even although I know I’m being totally stupid. I am soo lucky to have the patience and love of my Sir.
That brings me to trust - when we first started messaging I did think how sweet he was but I couldn’t bring myself to trust him. I’d met a few Insta-Doms who demanded submission almost immediately, making me distrustful pretty much of most men who said they were Doms. I know now these so called Doms were out for themselves and did not have anyone elses interest at heart, least of all mine. Intrigued persevered and no matter what barrier or wall I put up he patiently waited until I was ready and I broke these barriers down myself. He did not push or nudge me in any direction, always allowing me to come back to him after I had had a chance to think our conversation over. I am bad for immediately saying no without listening or thinking and go into shut down mode. The amount of times I said something would never happen and now it has either happened or I have broached the subject. I would probably say he has the patience of a Saint and trust me he needs it!!! He has also showed me in soo many ways that I can trust and rely on him no matter what.
I was asked to write how I felt I’d changed since entering our D/s relationship.
Growing confidence, starting to feel comfortable with who I am as a person and learning to trust Intrigued - putting myself in his hands and trusting he knows what is best for me. They are some pretty big issues - to me - to be dealt with and Intrigued has taken my hand and not let go once.
In Intrigued, I am able to be me, I can have a conversation about absolutely anything without fear of recrimination. I have the kind of open and honest relstionship I have always dreamed about. I do truly believe that fate stepped in for both of us and led us to each other.
#oneinamillion
#gottalovefate
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#trulyblessed
