I'm going to sound awful... but men are not men anymore. Women aren't the same either. The modern world is burning people out at a very high rate.
I'm exhausted from trying and giving it a go, only to find out they don't want any responsibility or to be committed to me. I've had enough now tbh. It's hard to keep going to find someone and I often wonder what the point is.
They don't understand what a woman is for or how to treat them. They expect everything a wife would give without any commitment.
Anything you give to a woman will multiply, give her a house she will make it a home, give her stress and it will become worse, give her your seed she will bear children, give her worry and she will become an anxious mess. Give her tasks and she will complete them. A woman is a help mate.... you need to have a purpose that's positive that she can help you with.
I'm honestly tempted to just give up on everything sometimes... I don't understand what the point is, you can't expect a woman to be there for you with no security. She needs emotional safety... or to feel safe.
I want to be on my own, get a boat or a cabin and fuck off from existence in society. Get some chickens and a vegetable patch and I'm good. Or a nuns convent.
I'm at the point that as much as I would like a relationship, I'm honestly not sure I have it in me to try and trust again.
I was left in a hotel with nowhere to go, wouldn't let me get my stuff while I was 3 weeks late. Fully knowing I don't have family to go too. Saying well 'it's not my problem' after spending weeks convincing me to move in with him, then deciding its not for him. I'm a human person, not a washing machine to test run. Men like the idea of being the good guy... the idea of it, the concept actually living up to their promises and standards not so much. We had been together for at least a year if not a bit longer by this point.
He wanted me off birth control... so yes there is an increased risk. But seriously... that's the consequences of fucking a woman! That's literally what I'm designed for, to get pregnant. So if there is no birth control... you kinda can't be surprised. Especially when it was your idea.
I can't deal with the shit show that is modern dating. Either commit or don't... but half assing stuff is just brutal to be on the receiving end off.
Too many boys pretending to be men. They have an idea of what it's supposed to be, then when no one can live up to the fantasy... they check out and want to go back to neverland.
It's pathetic
And yes... I know women aren't great atm either but this is my experience