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"But why bother getting vaccinated if nothing changes? If we have to wear masks and have lockdowns and stuff?"

I tried to explain it to my partner, and he got it, but said it was "too complicated" for most people, heh. He said "people are asking, why bother getting the vaccine if nothing changes?" I said "things WILL change, but it's like dungeons and dragons... let's say you have a 100-sided die, right? Rolling 50-100 gets you infected. Below or above that, and you're fine. If you are vaccinated, you get +95 to your roll, so you're only at risk if you somehow roll 1 through 5. Way better odds, right? But it doesn't stop there. See, ever single person who gets infected has to roll another die. If they roll 1-5, a mutation develops in their body, and this mutation is one that the vaccine isn't effective against, so that +95 to the roll is gone, and all the protection against symptoms is, too. I am not giving accurate numbers, but explaining how probability works in this situation."

Basically, TLDR, people with the vaccine are way less likely to get sick and to be carriers, but with a majority of the population still unvaccinated, even vaccinated people are at risk, because there are so many potential carriers still, so there's still a high potential for mutations that the vaccine cannot fight.
That's why we are still being asked to follow pandemic protocols. We who are fully vaccinated ARE much safer- for now, but that could change before we know it, so we need to stay the course until we achieve herd immunity through vaccination.

As for the people who say "it's my personal choice," remember that your choice doesn't just affect you- you can spread the disease, even when it is asymptomatic, to other people, who can then die or be permanently damaged. That is something YOU are responsible for doing- their blood is on your hands.

Hello friends,

In my area, it looks like, out of all demographics, the 20-29 year old age range are the most likely people to be carriers. Not the most likely to die from it, but that does happen, still, along with other serious consequences, some permanent. But it doesn't stop people from SPREADING it to those who ARE much more likely to die or suffer badly from it.

People of ANY age, ANY gender, ANY ethnicity, and ANY blood type can be carriers, even when asymptomatic. So, while one group is a little more likely, there's no magical group that can't be a carrier. The numbers are better here in CNY, but still not as good as they were before October. Nation-wide, Covid-19 is still often the leading cause of death, day-to-day, over heart disease and cancer, even.

Please, friends, be careful, and vaccinate as soon as you can. We will only beat this and get back to something resembling normal when we are all responsible citizens and do our part. Think of it as SSC.

1. Make it safer for everyone. Distance, mask up, wash your hands, and do what you can to minimize contact until this pandemic is no longer ravaging our communities.

2. Be sane, and listen to medical experts. Consider the likelihood that the consensus of a vast, vast, VAST majority of medical experts across the globe who have made the understanding of diseases their life's work carries more weight than a few outliers, or that conspiracy theory you saw on social media, which often has a political agenda behind it. The virus doesn't give a fuck about your political beliefs, or whether or not you want to stick it to the other team. Apply critical thinking. I know this whole thing is scary and overwhelming. I know it's causing a lot of suffering, and the things we have to do to get through it are causing suffering. I know we're all sick of it- but none of this makes the reality of the virus go away. None of this, including choosing to just not believe in it, makes it not real.

3. And consider that the people who also have to do things like get food and pay rent do not consent to being given this disease by you. "It's my personal choice" only holds water when you are the only person who suffers the consequences of your choice. If you decide to cut off your own leg, well, that's pretty crazy, but that's a choice you are making about your own body. If you go around cutting off other people's legs, it is other people who are suffering. If you choose to not vaccinate, not mask up, not isolate, and not distance, you have a really good chance of not just getting sick yourself, but also getting a lot of other people sick, and killed. Not being able to physically see the immediate consequences of your actions (or inactions) doesn't make your responsibility for them any less real. People are still going to die because of what you did, so it isn't just about your freedom any more. Being a part of a society comes with responsibilities. Being a part of a community comes with responsibilities. Even small children have to learn this.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel, for some of us, at least. Let's move towards it together, instead of dragging each other back down into the dark. Will you stand with me? Will you do right by your community? Will you be a person who can be trusted to be safe? We can do this, together.

Back in the early 1990s, my mom delivered meals to AIDS patients who were too sick to go out much any more. It was always considered fatal back then, and there was so much stigma attached to it that people often ended up becoming outcast pariahs because of it. I remember going with her once to visit a guy whose birthday it was. He was alone, crying, and drunk. No one had even called to wish him a happy birthday. He'd been completely abandoned. My mom and I were the only people who came to see him. We hugged him and hung out for a while after giving him food.

We got a couple blocks away before mom pulled over and started sobbing. I held her while she cried. I was maybe 15 or 16. I felt really old right then, and I was both right and wrong about that. Mom had to have been younger than I am now. I wish I could go back in time and talk to her as the person I am now. We could have learned a lot from each other.

Back then, you also saw a lot of people in denial. Willfully ignorant people who wanted to have their fun and not worry. AIDS was a big, scary spectre, so they pretended it wasn't a threat to them. "That's a gay disease. I can't get it." "Oh, I can tell she doesn't have it by looking at her." "I'm young and healthy. It won't happen to me, and I won't get anybody I care about sick."

A lot of folks in my community back in SF lived through the AIDS pandemic, and buried a lot of loved ones. We're watching people have that same goddamned attitude. "It won't happen to me. The deaths are fake numbers. I'm young and healthy. I do what I want. It's a conspiracy- it isn't real. They just want to control you."

We are burying friends and loved ones, again. Humanity never seems to learn, as a species.

But me? I'm watching who is being reckless, who is going out and getting people sick when they should know better, when they CHOOSE not to. I'm watching, and I'm going to remember. I will never trust you. Never.

So, I am a student of Japanese Tea Ceremony, Omotesenke school, to be exact. 

As such, I drink ceremonial grade matcha, prepared traditionally in a tea bowl with a whisk. It is the finest tea leaves, exposed to the least amount of sunlight, so it has as little bitterness as possible. It is plucked from the very top branches, only the first couple leaves. From there, the leaves are steamed, dried, and ground into a fine, talcum-like powder. This is used to make koicha, which is a thick tea the consistency of warm honey, without the stickiness. It is nothing like the tincture one drinks from a steeped tea bag- the leaves, themselves, are consumed. It is very intense.

Today, I practiced, for the first time, making a single bowl of thick tea for 5 people. This involved 15 grams of powdered tea leaves, as each serving of thick tea is approximately 3 grams of tea. I used some matcha that was for sure on the old side, but still safe to consume. I didn't want to fuck up really good, fresh tea.

The monstrousity I produced was not good tea. there were a couple of chunks in it. I used a bit too much water in the first pour, as one is meant to make a ganache as the leaf particles slowly absorb the water, kneading the tea until it is glossy and pulls on the whisk. Then, one adds more water, just enough that it pours into your mouth when you tilt the bowl, albeit a bit slowly. It's not meant to have chunks. The tea was for sure on the old side, too.

Still, I'm poor, and I have that guilty kind of "you can't waste that" feeling, especially since true ceremonial grade matcha from Japan (in a tin, and never from China, where the soil on tea plantations for matcha is often contaminated with lead,) is quite expensive. Therefore, I drank it all. All of it. All 15 grams. The glaze of tea left in the bowl? I turned that into usucha, which is thin tea. It all went into my body. 

After, I did two loads of laundry, did the dishes, and wrote a speech. Now? Now my stomach hurts, but I CAN SEE THROUGH TIME. I am buzzing about like a fucking bumblebee. My crippled ass is flying. I climbed on my mate. I mildly frightened the cats. I ate a low carb brownie, forgetting that I made it with coffee.

I can fold space. I have become a Bene Gesserit witch. My eyes are glowing, not blue, but green. The matcha mush flow. I have seen all that was, all that is, and all that may yet come to pass. Look upon my works, o mortals, for all shall love me and DESPAIR.

Not sure how to get off ceiling, please send help. 

I got dragged really hard by some people Elseweb where one can write Fet type things, by certain people. 

Not long after that, though? I think the reason why became pretty damned clear. 

I, unfortunately, take no pleasure in saying "I told you so." 

I really need a partner I can speak to openly about such things without it becoming a battle. 

I, unfortunately, feel like I need to start asking certain questions really early on, when considering getting involved with someone, before I am at risk of catching feels. Questions like:

1. Do you vaccinate?

2. What conspiracy theories do you believe in, if any?

3. Do you think higher education is a good thing?

4. Is diversity good? Should ethnicities and cultures mix?

5. Are you cool with trans people?

6. Do you believe cis women are capable of rational thought, and can make decisions based on critical thinking?

7. Do you think the vast majority of scientists and/or medical professionals are a part of a conspiracy of lies meant to control you?

8. Does enjoying freedom as a member of a society also come with responsibilties to your fellow humans?

9. Is might always right?

10. Do you think you are a shitty person, and if so, are you genuinely working hard to become not shitty?

11. Can you feel empathy and compassion for people you don't know?

Yeah so I just got dumped by my secondary (and dom) over discord, over the Covid-19 vaccine. I am immunocompromised and must depend on herd immunity to keep me safe from the virus. Nope, not OK.

So, I'm not here to talk about the plot. The plot is interesting to me, but that's not what has me so moved and amazed by STD

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I believe that this series embodies the spirit of Gene Roddenberry's vision like Star Trek has not in a very, very long time.

Two of the main characters of the show are gay, and in a relationship. No one makes a big deal out of it, because it is normal. No one views it as bad, unnatural, or a threat. It simply is. People bond. People fall in love. People bicker over tiny things that can get annoying in a long-term relationship. People reach out unconsciously for comfort from one another, and communicate in many ways. The humanity of Star Trek doesn't even think about the fact that they are gay. They have done the work. They have confronted harmful cultural programming long ago, and left it behind.

The latest episode included a character who was a young transman. His being trans is never mentioned. It is not the reason he is in the episode. It simply is. It isn't hidden, and it isn't trotted out. No speeches or sermons need to be made, because it is normal. Humanity has done the work. They have come to understand that everyone's journey is their own, and even if we cannot understand it based on our own personal experience, their experience is not a threat to us. Who they discover that they are is not a threat to us. It is simply the person they are. His pronouns are used naturally. His existence is natural and normal, a part of reality. There is nothing to fight.

Humans are gregarious creatures, and, especially in times of stress, being touch-starved can be devastating for most of us. In Discovery, the grew often express platonic physical affection. A reassuring touch. A hand-squeeze. A moment of contact. Not just glances and smiles, but physical connection. This isn't weird. Humanity has done the work. It is healthy. It is shown as something that has developed over time, with consent, but a normal part of a group of people working together, depending on one another.

There is a scene where a character who is accustomed to being in a position of authority seeks understanding and de-escalation, rather than coercion, in a combative situation. She says, "I need you to understand- I am not fighting you. You are fighting me." She works to forge a connection, a moment of understanding, with the person who is attacking her, recognizing that he is in a state of fight or flight, being controlled by fear, and that the solution is to soothe the fear and no longer be the threat of the unknown. If she has the power to beat him down, she knows that she also has the power not do so. No one has to die. No one has to be humiliated, or have their spirit broken. It is much harder to hate a person when you understand them, and see them as a person. The people of Starfleet know this. They have done the work.

Humanity in the universe of Discovery, flawed as it is, has cultivated an optimistic spirit of curiosity, embracing diversity, respecting differences whilst seeking commonality. Seeking understanding instead of reverting to xenophobia.

Though it may feel as though we are looking out from the dark mirror universe, what we truly see here is a vision of one potential future: this is humanity as it could be. This is the humanity we could be if we chose empathy over fear, compassion over apathy, love over anger. This is the humanity we could be if we accepted that we can be flawed and make bad decisions, but commit to being honest with ourselves about our personal responsibility when we do so, and to learning from them so we can overcome and do better. This is the humanity we could be if we balanced our rational minds with our passionate hearts. To truly grow as a species, as sentient beings, we must accept and embrace the whole of what we are. We must do our best to understand, to learn, to apply critical thinking to the way we view the world, but we also must have empathy, caring, love, and compassion, to guide us towards choices that benefit us all, and make our world a better place. This is humanity approaching the world with, if I might paraphrase Carl Sagan for a moment, equal parts of skepticism and wonder.

And perhaps, some day, other worlds as well.

Oh, my doves.

Why do you lie? Why, when trying to get together with someone, do you try to deceive them? What kind of foundation is that for a relationship? Hell, what kind of foundation is that for a one night stand? And why, oh, why, do you lie when it's so demonstrably OBVIOUS that you are lying? Do you think that it will get you anywhere?

I wonder, sometimes, if some of you, as children, drew all over the walls at home, and when your parents confronted you with your misdeed, you said, "I didn't do it!"

"Well, who did it, then, the dog? Did someone break into the house and do it?" they might have asked.

"I don't know! It was somebody else!" There were marker stains on your hands, and no other children lived there, but then... did... did your parents decide you were telling the truth? Did they say, "gosh, well, he said he didn't do it! It MUST have been the dog" and go punish the dog, or like, fill out a police report of breaking and entering toddlers?

I just... what's your endgame? How did you grow up like this?

My profile has entire-ass paragraphs. I'm looking for long term partners, and I truly do not believe it is too much to ask to read the whole "about me" section. It's incredibly rare for people who message me on here to actually do so. That, in and of itself, is pretty sad, but what's REALLY sad is when I ask someone if they HAVE read it, and they claim to have... but it is clear that they haven't.

There are specific instructions in my profile. A policy my Master and I have, and my own version of, I suppose, a human-oriented catchpa. "Are you a serious lifestyler, or are you a horny net guy who is just casting a wide net with form letters, trawling for pussy?"

Most people fail that catchpa pretty spectacularly. It isn't even hard to follow the directions. So, when they tell me, "I have read your entire profile," and they haven't followed the directions, it tells me one of two things:

1. They are a liar, and I cannot trust them. If they are going to lie about something as simple as this, I can't trust that they won't lie about their sexual practices, or actual experience in the lifestyle, or any number of things that are vital to my safety,

*or*

2. They DID read it, but have no respect for boundaries, and will try to trample over mine, thinking themselves an exception, for some reason, because of their Big Magical Dom Dick Energy, I guess? They don't think the rules apply to them. I cannot trust them to honor a safeword, not stealth me, or respect the boundaries of my relationships.

Congratulations, bro, you just played yourself.

Look, if you don't know something? BE HONEST. Nobody knows everything. It's ok! Maybe it'll mean we aren't compatible. That's ok! Better to find out now than have a disaster later because you were dishonest, ruining your reputation, and maybe lives, in the process, right?

If you didn't do something, BE HONEST. "No, sorry, looking at your tiddies got me excited, and I decided to message you, but I didn't read your profile. I'll do so now." Wow, see? Owning up to it, that shows you are responsible and willing to fix things, willing to work with someone and recognize that something is important to them. MASSIVE bonus points for then coming back with messaging my partner, and passing the catchpa.

Just, listen. Stop lying. I'm not your over-indulgent momma. I'm not gonna take your shit. I'm a sub, but I'm not YOUR sub, and I'm no-one's doormat. I wouldn't stay with a dom who was a liar, and I won't get together with one, either.

Be a responsible adult. Now, THAT'S sexy.

Being poly or mono isn't determined by your gender.

Getting top drop or not isn't determined by your gender.

Being dominant or submissive or a switch or a puppy or whatever isn't determined by your gender.

I...

Where are people even getting these ideas from? Seriously.