Man I just want to wear a great flowy skirt and tank and dance barefoot for hours at a party in the field and lose myself. Maybe I will get it out of my system and I’ll be able to accomplish some things lol:)
The Vicious Kind
the Story of O
the Secretary (just watched kindergarten teacher w Maggie gyllenhal love her
hmmm trying to remember more
and here’s a song I’m listening to currently which moves me:)❤️
The imagery unbearable avert your eyes divert your thoughts like from alcohol too painful if you cannot have it so turn and
see her picture of outer space, we will have tea there my dad and I at a floating table
I’m a free electron not attached I became detached as can happen no grounding no nucleus no magnet and the desire to connect is extreme but it is quite beautiful to swim in the blackness too
accidentally on purpose spilling hot water on her she felt shocked but later enjoyed the burn the redness and sometimes will tip a little on herself when no ones looking before making her tea
There are the Creators and the Appreciators (kindergarten teacher
I wanna bang my head against the wall. Part of me is aware it’s a drama and even a silly one- not very deep
Unreal but still -I want to feel myself bleed!!
Why? Enough already! Time out
Tomorrow I’ll smoke, slender white sticks between my lips- two
Then I will let go, maybe
Am I dying? Memories float up - I should’ve kissed Alayna when we were painting on her floor
Again the the pink jean jacket gun appears so I hold it and
She strokes the dirty porcelain face of her rainbow brite doll, smooths the orange stringy hair
I would buy her those white slip on sandals
Sit RIGHT next to her at the dinner table while she ate the largest portion of creamed fish with Lawrys salt and green peas
Bring her a man to save her from the bathroom stall where she hid
I will save you Sarah, we don’t need another
another stunning alt j song❤️
Another’s share of bjork all is full of love which I’m still listening to on repeat- made me see this, my wall hanging, which I usually ignore, which is a frequency painting for self love. I am enjoying the hearts and design and color.. yay.. also just colored a beautiful design w beautiful markers.. so satisfying.. color.. shape.. Thankyou Thankyou thankyou
He said I didn’t try but I filled the sink w water and asked him to hold my head under
asked him to pin me against the wall “I need to feel your strength
angel mermaid facilitators hold me to the ocean floor erika Ari Francesco Larry Ana milena Ana Maria
ankles wrists legs shoulders om the profound depth of being
adding wet sand on top of my limbs
but I still float up! A yellow balloon not a girl
anchor in your heart I am my child self my white sweatshirt w the bird on front and turquoise leggings and glasses -serious desperate ready willing
I like this song sometimes it helps me connect to my sadness
My wing is clipped
I sit in the nest and hope he comes back to feed me
but he may not and then the little bird will die
Are you my Daddy? Said she to the Snort
A video I saw on another’s blog reminded me of this video and song which I like at a certain moment
