Sarah’s world

also this!!

Feelin this!  Thankyou jeff Buckley. Feelin him from across the grave.  So young, 30:(

Feeling this song that my sons blasting lol.  I like Kanye a lot, I like how he’s an independent thinker 

How bout some yoghurt to go with the toast?

Heading to a party.  Nice to primp but always feel a need to be raped in the bath or something ugh..  lol. 

(whispering close to his ear hoping the paramedic in her parents upstairs hallway wouldn’t notice) Dad.. dad.. 

dad….. but he was dead.  she just thought maybe MAYBE he would wake up. Like when she wrote a note to Santa “can I pretty please have one gift early to show me you’re real??? Leaving it on her dresser believing there would be one when she woke and excited 

but his feet turned black and her mother made it about her so she fucked the paramedic and the fireman and on her way home later she pulled over at a construction site talking over her nerves “will one of you please fuck me?

when she did cry it shook her and she almost threw up.  It lasted a long time. Buckling at one moment straight to the ground in the dirt on the hard earth and later curled in the corner of her kitchen pushing into the cupboard doors

Then new tendrils grew, tender green stems and she knew this time how precious.  even letting a man into her heart, her daddy who replaced “new daddy” in her phone 

Will you please talk me through an orgasm? She wanted to feel something and couldn’t settle on a better way. Deviating from the path to the love party at the riverbed briefly, she went into the woods to smell the earth and feel the sharp branches.  His belt came off and he snapped it which she absolutely loved. It was ok she thought and anyway it couldn’t hurt that bad, could it? Please don’t make me wait she whispered. He laid his hand on 

her hip as she lay inside on her bed. Lay beside her, she hadn’t felt a man in a long time and it was sooo nice she wriggled and settled in “please don’t leave.” She could smell him and he gave her a rainbow brite doll to hold 

I need a friend or two- anybody interested? I can be a friend too.  I’m trying to stay true to my daddy for now at least.  But I’m lonely.  He’s ill.  We can share experiences, support each, dunno.  Even light chat is ok. I don’t know what I’ll choose ultimately, my goal today is to connect with me but I just notice this strong urge to connect externally: to some degree I’m ok with that- I need I’m quite isolated. I do have my isha judd program which helps immensely.  

She woke up because his finger was in her mouth. Disoriented from sleep she nevertheless ran her tongue along the invading finger then closed her mouth around it sucking a bit with love and dreamily imagining her daddy’s cock. She knew he could touch her however and whenever he felt like it.
When he came to bed she was already asleep on her side. He crawled in behind her and snuggled close to his babygirl putting his arm around her. Then he ran his finger lightly across her cheek but as he grazed her lip he felt like putting his finger inside her mouth so he did simply because he could.  He was pleased with her reaction but now he removed his finger wet from her wanting mouth and a moment later.. inserted it into her butt.
Daddy no!!!!  She squirmed and jolted awake -Can I please suck you instead??
Babygirl you’re funny do you think you have a choice? He kept fingering her asshole which she had learned to keep clean for him.  “Aww but I don’t like it daddy..” she tried feebly again and he laughed “that doesn’t really matter now does it?? Whose body is this?
It’s your body daddy.. she said slowly feeling herself submit to the violation.
Yesss he said popping his finger out and rolling her over so that she lay on her tummy and her ass was fully exposed.  
He went ahead and began fucking her ass as he pleased knowing again, that he could.  It really was his body and this what he felt like doing at the moment.
She didn’t fight but she wasn’t participating either Push back onto your daddy’s cock babygirl cmon.. I expect more from you!
She drew a breath and did opposite of what (his) body told her- pushing into the pain because she NEEDED to please him and her daddy knew best. If he said to do this then contrary to how it felt to her at the moment it really must be the right thing.
That’s better.. good girl.. she LOVED his voice and would always work for his praise.. and then she felt surprised to find herself LIKING it.. he had not touched her clit and there had been only uncomfortable sensations and yet now she realized she was very aroused and becoming wet for him
That’s my good girl he grunted as he felt her switch over and lose any fight..
He chose to pull out and lift himself off of her to see what she would do and sure enough she cried out for him “daddy please fuck my ass more! I need you inside me!” and tried arching very much begging him to resume what he had been doing. He enjoyed her desperation and willingness but told her to flip over and lay on her back.  She was to hold the bed frame behind her tightly with both hands and if she let go she would be punished. He entered her again this time looking into her eyes knowing he had full control.  Daddy may I please rub myself with one hand?!  Beg me he said. Daddy I’m BEGGING you I desperately want to cum with you fucking my butt like this please daddy pretty please with a cherry on top?!
He allowed it and shortly after she began she cried out Daddy can I please cum for you?! It feels SO GOOD daddy I’m SO excited I need to cum for my daddy!
Only for me? He asked making her wait a bit
Yes daddy only for you!!  Yes cum for me HARD like the whore that you are only for me.. she came hard for him calling his name and he chose to let loose shortly afterwards.  He rested a moment, kissed her passionately and then they snuggled in to sleep and both slept well!

She couldn’t connect with anyone.  She kind of wanted to be done.  She wished someone would just take her.  She would be grateful.  Needing roughness