Sarah’s world

8. TO HAVE SOME PRETTY MARKS 

4. Have a friend

5. be able to sing really well, perform, want an audience

6. someone who can handle me when I am a hot mess and super resistant (NOT a brag just in severe emotional pain).  Ideas: lock me in a closet, tie me up and make me “go in”

7. A daddy who also does the isha system, is into consciousness and Teal

8. 

1. Raped in a forest.. smelling the earth.. feeling the rough bark of a tree..  the sharp branches 

2. forced to lay in a muddy ditch.. “put your face in the mud.. are you gonna leave the house dirty again?

3. Kneeling before Him trying to please Him, looking up and adoring Him and welcoming his sharp face slaps that make me see stars..

4. 

Today the sun doth rise after a day of horror.  Letting myself breathe.  Choosing love.  For me.  Funny how the ground can just open up.  I wanted a man to focus me, but I have come to it myself! WOW.  Still want the connection with my daddy DESPERATELY but he’s far away and in the hospital right now and it’s hard.  Thankyou to the person on here who didn’t try to initiate anything because I’m really already owned- I just forget- it’s really hard with my daddy in the hospital.  

From a low vibration, I would pay someone to love me. In a way I can feel. So much emotional pain can only be matched with physical pain.  I won’t let myself out.  There is a lot of stress, I can’t breathe.  I need SOMETHING very bad.  Get me out of here. Please.  Take me to sub space where I don’t have to feel this,I can’t break through.  Please, please, please, please, please. HELP. It’s in my face- I can’t have so much crashing up against me like this at once- family, selling a house, kids.  I have to feel something physically, I have to.  Rough rope, rough hands, being held down.