The words that fall out. Creative writing poetry stream of consciousness dreams. The good the bad and the ugly. Very important to me- I greatly appreciate any readers, greatly appreciate being seen felt and heard.
Thanks to butterfliesandcuffs gettin me goin today! And NOW i will clean my house and plan dinner lol or maybe just have more of a dance party and hope the sweat will make me more productive later
was gonna post a video of me dancing- why won’t it upload?? Are you only able to add pics?
Helped police catch a homeless guy in my building this morning, probably just needing a warm place to sleep. I feel good about it - I mean I don’t even lock my door half the time and I have children. But also I wonder- what is the kids story? What brought him here and is he ok? Hmmmmmmm
Dropped a glass of water, not sure why my hand opened just then. Coming to me in pieces. Woke guessing at an apology my son may need. Try to go back under but I have to pee and the cat is talking. Screaming at me in her weird little voice I wonder what she’s saying. I am happy with my morning, closer to being caught up with my homework and of course it benefits me. They’re putting a horse down I didn’t know what to say. Normally I’m pretty good at holding space but I’m not an animal person. I wasn’t going to lie, I didn’t know Gypsy well, but it was beautiful to witness Marissa’s tears flowing. I think I was quite deep, if only I could stay there a bit longer, I’m not sure why I keep waking up.
4 years ago. Wednesday, January 5, 2022 at 10:32 PM
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He stopped me fucking around me shoved my head deep onto his cock. I choked and tried my best letting him do as he wished and excited that he was feeling good. I sucked and went faster up and down up and down feeling his balls and then he shoved my head down again and kept it there He came and I couldn’t breathe he was viscious in this and I was scared. Finally he let me off and I swallowed chocked and breathed. He told me after a few moments to sit on the bed against the wall though with my legs wide open. He crawled onto the bed and shoved my legs hard more open I said WIDE open Sarah. It hurt and he seemed mad. He took some clothespins and started playing with me between the legs and sticking them on my lips pulling them out sticking them on. I was super wet and I felt embarrassed. Who gets dripping wet from being hit Sarah? He said judging me cruelly. I became afraid he’d put a clothespin on my clit and I didn’t think I could take it. But he went down there and surprised me by kissing softly there and a very light touch with his tongue. I settled and he didn’t push he knew when I wanted more and went with that he was so good, I thought of and looked at and felt the clothespin pinching me in my private parts and became needy. He licked and sucked me and I opened to him -I love you daddy I’m cumming for you daddy only you daddy I love you daddy I love you I love you I love you! After I came he waited and I started crying. As I lay against the cool wall and shook he carefully removed the clothespins, came to sit next to me pulled me onto his lap. I cuddled collapsed into his chest and bawled. He rubbed my back and told me to let it all out to my daddy
4 years ago. Wednesday, January 5, 2022 at 9:27 PM
His mouth on my mouth rousing me and everything literally turns to black space nothingness around my be only Him and I are real. Instantly I take my clothes off if He would have me, I need Him. Rolls me on my tummy runs his hand petting my hair then down my back and over my butt I part my legs I cannot help it. Hmmmm He murmurs noting my wanton need for His touch presence voice command. If you want your legs open then let’s tie them open He says with derision. He yanks one foot roughly to the corner of my bed and I feel rough rope around my ankle and then Him fastening it tight. For me I feel panic at this and say so I’m scared Daddy. Leaving the one leg tied He comes by my face “it makes ME happy if you do this for ME little one.” He pets my hair I turn my head and see Him feel Him he kisses me barely and I die seeking more. I try to pull him to me He pins that arm behind my back. You are half mine now are you going to be good? It scares me daddy I don’t like it I panic, I whine. He lets me out but tells me to lay over his knee he’s sitting on chair. I feel ashamed and stupid. You are a disappointment Sarah, a failure, your panic is ridiculous and something must be done about it- he hits me hard! I am disappointed in you he says as he hits me until I start crying. The pain was shocking a terrible until it switched to very very good and I want him to say more things to me. I am again very willing and needing him so much. He shoves me onto the bed while he stands up moving the chair out of his way. You need to spend some time worshipping me Sarah. He’s standing he’s wearing jeans with a belt, tells me to put his belt on the bed laying it out and to take him out. Get on your knees and do it what are you waiting for. He sprinkles rice on the ground to kneel on that he gets from his pocket. I unbuckle his belt take it out feel it smell it I want to be beaten with it. Lay it on the bed and undo his jeans the zipper pull them down - jeez Sarah what a klutz do I have to do everything myself? He takes off his pants. Stare right there as I show you what will be fucking your throat. I feel silly again and he barks sit up straight, as I straighten I look away and he slaps my face hard “did I say you could look away from my cock?’” It stings I’m sorry I manage and he hits me again. As I recover it sinks me back down Can I please suck you daddy? I want to make you happy daddy I want to make you feel good daddy. Do it and you better do a good job he says. Since he’s made me feel a certain way I revere putting my mouth on him feeling around the head with my tongue snd licking down the sides putting my mouth on it and lowering down sucking feeling exploring..
4 years ago. Wednesday, January 5, 2022 at 7:57 PM
one of my brothers bands, haven’t really talked to him since he discounted me on his Facebook pp. during pandemic.. but I’ll prolly be expected at his wedding next fall so maybe I’ll be expressing about him. Also fun to checkout his music and see my dad in him too
4 years ago. Wednesday, January 5, 2022 at 3:55 PM
so this song with these artists rose cousins and royal wood is just so beautiful, I’d have loved to be in that room
And this song is Rose Polenzani, she’s a great poet I like use of language and I feel her soft. I got to serve her coffee once in a bookstore/coffeehouse I was starstruck, I felt I failed at being cool