Sarah’s world

Those glass bottles of coke, alphabet cereal, cups of frozen peas, her grilled cheese sandwiches and her stress level energy.  The walk in closet nail polish remover my sister and in my dreams sweet boys hidden amongst items stuffed there finding each other the beauty. White carpet tan plush, stockpiles of expensive flavored chocolate at easter and I binged in the bathroom.  Sadness at Christmas oh the empty feeling despite those beautiful glass colorful candies with jelly centers in the dish on the wooden table he built.  A pain to clean to her expectations with the glass inserts but impressive I felt proud.  The vacuum where you had to reach in and grab the dirt from the water so gross such a pain but it works well! Says my mother.  Corn on the cob with butter in summer on the porch with the green carpet and where Junk Runs occurred when mom was gone.  Bits and pieces palpable memories coming back, before there was nothing now there are some things more and more hopefully placing me there my being now assured of safety in present can go back and see