How is it that I am well? How did I make a jump when I didn’t know I was about to? Life is wonderfully mysterious! I greatly appreciate Francesco who led the isha meeting, who pushed me in practicing facets and being present giving to others. I have something to give! In this group it is wanted! I feel joy. I frequently believe I’m alone and yet Karolina is my friend, and we with Janze have our writing group.. ah how good it feels to focus on the good things. There are so many! Since my divorce I’ve learned to mow the lawn, ride a four wheeler, build furniture- I’ve come far! AND, per my Daddy’s direction I went out and bought ROPE today, I chose rough kind. I spoke too loudly perhaps ha in response to “can I help you find something?” Two older men, and me “rope!!” Haha. In and out phew! A friend lover had shown me how to tie my ankles together years ago and I used to sleep like that alone. I am interested to see if I still like it and if I like this rough feel rope. I like the color, the normalcy of it (just plain tan?) I don’t like fancy colors or satiny textures I like REAL stuff. But I’m waiting to hear back from my daddy because I wasn’t so good last night and I’m anxious to reconnect?
3 years ago. January 18, 2022 at 8:30 PM