Thank God! My energy had dropped scary low after my session with my daddy on Wednesday. I wondered could I be dying. But finally today (lol bc it’s actually only been a couple of days) - I feel my energy emerging again with the help of music that gets me dancing hard. Now, Larry told me to move physically in my isha Mtg Wednesday night ha but I felt I had to crash. I will note for the future that he was RIGHT. Interesting to learn when to trust my gut and when to allow myself to be pushed (by the right people).
I always feel the contraction will never end haha. And then the expansion comes and I rejoice! Thankyou to butterfliesandcuffs for some music choices to get my energy going and then I ended on a song I’ll share here which got me moving and also touched me - the pleading lyric “don’t give up on me” is for me about one part of me pleading to another part of me to please not to give up on me. Does anyone do parts work? I’ve done some and it’s been amazing - I’d like to do more. Below I’ve included left handed writing from my self hating part..
So my pattern is that if more is touched than I’m quite ready for- I panic and try to shut down (eat and sleep a lot - my body literally loses most of its energy). My goal then will be to move physically sooner, and to push myself to let the facilitators in (I probably need help then when I LEAST want it). Also to remember that it WILL end
