There was a lot of pain on the underbelly of that high. I choose something more constant and real. The illusion was dangerous because I almost acted on it and I did risk losing it all. The real thing was there the whole time, I only needed to learn and grow into it. And I did:)
“I am so happy!” my daughter turned and shared today as she drove the four wheeler at the farm for the first time. And I felt so happy too! Out in the cold under blue sky and sun, later petting the various horses as I cleaned their stalls. They’re starting to say “hi” to me I think, we seem to be checking each other out now that my energy is more settled around them. I admire their color, their softness and how big they are. Anything difficult in the day is tolerable because we were there this morning and we have that.