Many moons, many thoughts

I climbed inside my soul and sat beside my heart and sang her a lullaby.  

I sang with all the love of all the grandmothers through all times. 

I sang lamentations and I sang exaltations.  

I held my heart like I would hold a newborn, precious, tender, vulnerable, wide open to receiving the love of the universe.  

I sang my heart a lullaby and I ask her for her forgiveness for the pain and sorrows that had climbed inside and had hidden from me.  

I sang a love song to the child’s heart that came into this world, wide eyed, innocent, longing to be seen, held and loved.  

I sang to the old woman’s heart that had endured, that had been betrayed and betrayed, that had loved and lost love. 

I sang to the strength of that heart that keeps on beating to the rhythm of the eternal heart beat. 

May all sorrows that need to climb their way out of your heart, flow into a river of tears, that gush like a rushing river carving new wrinkles upon your brow, a holy rite of passage, scarification, marking endings, honoring mysteries yet to be born. 

May your heart know peace, compassion and love in this New Year.  💜💜💜

If you want to heal your sexuality, heal your Soul.

Dive within and uncover the desperation, the lust, the greed, the need and the fear that still reigns control over you and embrace it fully.

Be with your desperation, your loneliness, your pain, your anger and your heart ache. Let it rise up and flow through every cell of your body and release it through your sacred tears and roaring primal expression.

Feel your lust, your longing and the need to be loved that moves you to act out of alignment. Lay down your pride in full surrender and become who you truly are by facing the illusions of your attachments and let them all fade away.

Journey deeper into your inner landscapes and embody forgiveness. Feel the ways you have betrayed, lied, cheated and manipulated to gain what you desired for yourself. Feel the ways you've been betrayed, lied to, cheated on and manipulated as well. Let it carve a new depth out of you. Dig into the pit's of grief and shame and free yourself by feeling and releasing it all the way.

Do whatever you can to connect with your body and feel the fear and mis-trust stored within. Hold it closer, invite it deeper, breathe it fuller. Witness it dissolving by the connection of love and the healing tenderness of presence.

Listen to the voice of your soul speaking through you. Become taken and ravished by the force of your soul expressing and communicating with you. Feel what you have not allowed yourself to feel and finally let go of the walls that have built your empire in coated armor.

Find pleasure in opening your channels of bliss and ecstasy. Hold yourself with grace in the center of your own heart. Surrender yourself into the present moment and let your heart open so fully that all the ancient seeds of shadows dissolve.

Witness your naked and vulnerable soul unfurl open completely. Become undone. This is the chariot that moves your sexuality, the vehicle that purifies and awakens you further to the Divine. This is the journey of your soul sexual healing and the welcoming of yourself home.

My devine blessings 💜💜💜

When you are looking back

At everything you’ve overcome

And you begin to dwell on the hurt

Remember to take a step back

And look at the bigger picture

The strength of your character

See how far you’ve come

And celebrate

You did that work

You carried yourself from there to here. 

You rewrote the story

You have all the tools you need

They’ve been inside you this whole time

You are the magician.

Many sweet blessings 💜💜💜

WHAT IF?

What if you’re never ready?

What if, this is as close to being ready that you’ll ever actually be?

What if, the biggest regret you have when you look back on your life, is that you wasted time waiting, waiting to be better, when you were already so very much enough?

What if, the last thought you have when your life comes to an end, is that you didn’t do enough living whilst you were alive?

My friend, this is it.

This is your life, right here, right now.

And let me tell you something, somebody somewhere went to sleep last night assuming tomorrow would be a new day.

And it wasn’t.

Today is the day.

Every day is the day.

Life waits for no one.

Seize the moment, seize the day.

Dance like nobody’s watching.

Watch the sunset.

Eat the delicious cake.

Put your bare feet on the cool grass.

Be alive.

Be ALIVE.

Put your hand on your chest and feel that heartbeat pulsing through your body.

That’s all you need to be ready.

That is truly all the purpose you ever really need.

You, my friend, are alive.

So live.

Many sweet blessings 💜💜💜

To my friend that's hurting xx

Be the love you never received.

Be the acknowledgment you never got. Be the listener you always needed.

Look at the younger versions of yourself within you and give yourself what it is you always needed.

That is the first step of healing.

If you want others to see you, you must see yourself.

Find your peace so your truth may shine again.

Have confidence in that you matter, you matter because you simply exist.

I pray and meditate for your heart and mind to find it's freedom and peace.

My sweetest blessings to you 💜🕊️💜

Not my usual kind of thing to say but need's must and all that!

I'm not sure how you have your foot in your mouth,

Your head up your ass,

And your nose in my business!

But her we are you fucking wizard!!

Bloody remarkable.

🤨🧐🙄

The man that I love

Said he couldn't promise me tomorrow 

Told me he might have other lovers in his future... 

He was being brutally honest

It propelled me right out of my comfort zone

Into the torment of the future 

A harsh terrain

Where I never want to return 

After the tears

I came to understand the gift 

His gift was love

His gift was now

His gift yanked me back into the present 

His gift forced me to appreciate every moment we share

His gift brought me joy

Pure bliss I've never felt before 

His gift made me realise that love does not live in the future

It is here in each breath

In every trembling heartbeat

And it can only ever be felt now

His gift brought me the freedom 

To love with wild abandon

To hold nothing back

To be fearless 

His gift is eternal 

For he has taught me

That when we truly love

Every moment lasts forever💜💜💜

In sincerity of gratitude to my Sir🥰

May I always shine with your healing light and love.🥰

I am allowed to receive conscious love.

I am allowed to have needs.

I am allowed to express my emotions.

I am allowed to trust the universe.

I am allowed to desire.

I am allowed to break open and heal.

I am allowed to call in a conscious man.

I am allowed to try something new.

I am allowed to claim my value.

I am allowed to do things that make me happy.

I am allowed to take care of myself.

I am allowed to want more.

I am allowed to take up space.

I am allowed to be powerful.

I am allowed to speak my truth.

I am allowed to love myself.

I am allowed to walk away.

I am allowed to clear space.

I am allowed to open my heart.

I am allowed to be authentic.

I am allowed to be vulnerable.

I am allowed to be soft.

I am allowed to be strong.

I am allowed to outgrow people.

I am allowed to outgrow my old self.

I am allowed to be the Goddess, the queen, the mother, the daughter, the partner, the lover, the woman I was always created to be.

Many blessings 💜💜💜

Hello my friends.

I have returned home after one of the most beautiful precious times in my life. I have been held safe and fiercely protected in his presence. 

He used his words consciously with purpose, and stayed true to his word, in touch with his heart — i melted open to him. 

Always his biggest priority was my comfort, safety, he treated me as he always as shown me like I'm his most treasured precious possession and he honured our every moment together in this way.

I felt it in my body when he radiate awareness and intention over every decision he made with our time together.

The purity of his direction allowed me  to surrender into my inner feminine. It is the most attractive feeling in the world. 

I have craved this experience of his truth and masculinity more than anything.

He is courageously loving, open, and honest with himself which allowed me the specail experience of the most safest place to allow my submission to truly shine.

In our lives, we must choose to love ourselves with each passing day. In relationship, we have the luxury of choosing to love another every single day.

It is a gift and a challenge to show up together through the moments of highest bliss, and the difficulty that arises.

What is more powerful than “needing” that person is choosing to stay with them, to learn from them, and to be a united force together.

There is nothing more beautiful in this world than two people leaning into union with trust, patience, and appreciation for one another and for the process. 

I am still in an after glow of the beautiful new memories we created together, so I'm going to take some time to myself and just let all these new feelings be absorbed by my body and mind.

 My blessings to you all 💜💜💜

🥰 10 more hours 🥰

At last just a few hrs more and we will be together ☺️

Starting my travels at 10.00 am this morning will be with my Sir by tea time...

See you on the other side my friends ☺️

🥰🥰🥰